as she describes herself [ih-moh][per-fek-shuh-nist] or somehow some people define as neurotic perfectionists to those who are unable to feel satisfaction because in their own eyes they never seem to do things [well] enough to warrant that feeling of satisfaction..
I might be trapped in some emotional wreck that I am clueless how I got myself in and how to get myself out now. Darn. Should have known better that my confidence was flushed down possibly 4 years ago.
Need some un-flushing and escaping.