Friday, July 10, 2009

another temporary emo turning permanent

yeah.. some words of crap again.

I am pretty unhappy right now.
I really do not want to sound like an ungrateful bitch but..
I just couldn't lie to myself n put on a happy face, telling you that I'm liking it a lot...
which obviously I do not.
Just the sight of it.. I went blank. Speechless...
Being in it.. tears just ran down like cats & dogs..
I really hate it.. Hate it..
How some people might think appearance do not matter at all...
but sometimes certain appearance DO matter.. NEED to matter..
Humans are fucking stereotyped
I'm not asking for like super-celebrity-class-standard.. but just at least presentable..
presentable in a way you can say it's simplicity "just nice".
Is that too much to ask for?

I am indeed happy that some effort was made to make things better..
which obviously did not turned out the good way now..
but which I thought it might.. though I did not give much hope on it..
but i really thought that it really really will be much better than before doing it..
Ended up.. looking at it now.. I seriously just went breathless.. speechless and..
Just the look at it.. I was filled with hatred towards that thing now..
I really don't know how to put myself inside it.. like everyday..
I know I should say many thanks.. I know I know I know!!!
I'm not towards the person.. I respect that person a lot.. with tons of love..
but towards that thatt.. piece of thingggg..
I really don't like it.. I really cant bring myself to even have happy fake thoughts bout it..
Arghhh... Can someone just tell me how to handle this?

when people tell u.. life's short.. enjoy it..
do whatever u can and u should and never regrets..
I tell you.. they are all lies..
especially when you put them side by side with responsibilities...
sometimes no matter how much you do.. it's just ain't enough..

why? tell me why lar..
sometimes i really don't know why i work so hard for...
why live life this way... why??
u see me good.. i see u good.. nobody knows what lies inside me & you..

tell me lar...

last question... tell me..
"How to go LIKE something that you HATED it at first sight??"


1 comment:

Louis Lia said...

We know that both of us are perfection seekers. Seriously though, the bad always come with the good. It's just a pair that you can't disintegrate. You want and like the good of that something (or someone), you'll have to gulp down the bad and bitter. Who says the world is fair? It's not. If you take it too serious though, you'll only stress yourself up and end up making yourself unhappy.