Friday, December 31, 2010

The Last of 2010

Wow.. Time flies. Today's the end of 2010. Unbelievable but trying to believe it.. :)

This week has been pretty fruitful. Cleaning up, packing, throwing old things, buying new stuff, preparing to move into a new room which is just across the hall. My contract for my 'single' room was repeatedly asked to be terminated by my 'landlady' in order for her son to have his own room. So hence, I'll have to moved to another slightly bigger room to bunk with my sister.

I needed to make some refurbishment for the so-called new room to me as nobody has been sleeping in it fir sometime. It was like how you going to restore a old room into a better one for living. Ain't wrong right? But to some people it was not necessary, hence all the disagreements n etc. But to me, I must.. For a very simple reason.. I am going to sleep there. Bedrooms are important as most daily routines of your life is organized in there.

New sliding wardrobe cabinet for sure. The existing one was almost 30 years old d. Painted a new shade of dark purple, white for ceiling and window frames. Cleaning and scrubbing on existing dark timber parquet floors.

To have a proper room, disagreements with the LL went uncontrollable. I have lived my life for 26 years but I still have no say in refurbishing my room as what I do best as my profession but my opinions were not agreed upon any reasonable 'logic'. I was very depressed. I have to literally fight my way though it. I set my own budget, did what I need to the very minimum cost n contacting my contractor for my new wardrobe. Darn I was not agreed at all in the first place but I stood very firm as I know what I am doing.

The room is halfway done. Lack of a new mattress, tall-boy and 'storage' partition aka Expedit which obviously I'm getting from a least designers' favourite place called Ikea. All chipboards n mdf means low budget. Well, better than nothing.. At least I got my custom-build wardrobe. Thanks to my carpenter who was willing to fly all the way from capital down to humble Klang for 1 set of 8' wardrobe.

Guess I'll be purchasing the loose pieces next week. I'll be home counting down the minutes to 2011 later. New resolutions for the new year? Well just one. To keep my life organised at all times. Working hard and achieving goals are parts of my all-time mottos. Not a resolution. So that's all wrapped up for 2010!!

See you next year and a Happy New Year!!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas

I'm sitting at Starbucks, Borders Gardens while other thousands of people doing their last minute shopping for Christmas.

We're hitting Alexis later.
But for now I'm bored. Reading a romance when I'm feeling bored on a festive day? Hmmm is it weird?

Merry Christmas to you.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

I love my Life

I don't want to be in a match-make scenario.
I don't see 26 years old is an issue.
Nuff said.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

prepared or not to?

Manicure & pedicure in the morning.
Hair treatment in the afternoon.
Playing dress-up twice in three days.
I'm tiredddd but happy.
Best wishes to the newly wedded couple!!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

trying to adapt

Oh well, the warning sirens went out of control again.
Again over some ridiculous self-imagination statements.
Funny huh? How human mind can eventually "generate" that?
Like.. hmm how should one put it for easier understanding..
Oh.. okay it's like..
It did not happen but you keep thinking and imagine until it's a full story in your head..
and well by the time you're done imagining 'em in your head, it was "AS IF" it already happened...

Wow mighty Wow huh??
Really drive me up the wall at times.
Or should I say EVERYtime.


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

6 months after

Right at this second, a lot of things spinning in my head rapidly. The feeling of a lot of things to do yet so little time.. or more like there’s a lot to do but not knowing which suits myself the most. And possibly a lot of distraction meaning to say sarcasm, unnecessary scoldings, very negative comments, crazy ideas and maybe cash?

I’ve been unemployed since June 2010. Almost half a year, wow.. Thinking it, it was so damn long ago. Freaking half years just flew swiftly off without a blink of eye. Sometimes thinking it again, makes me go. WhatTheFuckk?? Not to say I did not make use of my so-called free time, I am not that kind of person where you can see me doing absolutely nothing for months. I ought to get some projects/activities to fidget with. I do have freelance projects, taking most of my time, hence I do not realize months have passed just like that. I do feel a bit free-er than my 9-6 job period but sometimes it was too hectic as I do not have anyone to count on except myself; unlike last time where I do have a boss to shield as a standing cold wall? Things are very different now but I do enjoy every bit of it, though at times I might be a fussypants and hmm maybe a crazy bitch? At times when the “giving-up” level reached its fucking peak that I just want to drop everything just like that, but then everything would go flushed into the drain. These times are so hard to cope with, ain’t words can easily explain, or easily shared with a friend but.. it’s just the.. well, I am glad I managed to work out some inner courage/confidence to face all these fucking obstacles and yes, fucking people. *pat on back.

Half year. Bloody half year. Crazy 6 months. Never ending roller-coaster ride.
It’s almost year-end. I quit my 9-6 job due to some typical employee reason and also to give myself a break. In fact a break to think what will my next step be. Times have been busy, hence that I still haven’t quite figured out what I want to do yet. 6 months ain’t short but not that long either, BUT enough for a “break”, I guess. I ought to start thinking again.

I am in the middle of contemplating with 2 options.
First, I do have a sudden urge to go back to studying life. Just a speck of sudden urge to do it, but I guess it ain’t a bad thing to continue my Masters which definitely I am NOT taking Interior Architecture but maybe something else. And if I do start on my Masters, I don’t think I will be able to seek for a 9-6 job, right? So I’ll still stuck with freelance projects till I finished my Masters. Why Masters some asked? Well, just a way to always “up” your knowledge another level, ain’t a bad thing, right? Just want to discover more things I would say and hence, that’s why I will definitely not do freelance full time.

On the other hand, I ignore Masters. I shall seek for a 9-6 job after Chinese New Year which was one of the initial plans I had in mind since I quitted. I have still not browse through Jobstreets and etc websites to see what they have in market right now. I mean.. I will when times are near, not now, ‘cos knowing myself I will be very distracted with something so new to experiment with, might even neglect or dis-interest what I have in hand now. I shall move on one by one. Besides, my portfolio ain’t ready yet. That’s another hassle. Hmm.

Some encouraged me to do freelance full time aka start my own firm. I really think it’s way too early to do that. Then came answers that say, you have your “market” now, do you want to just let them go and re-start back in working full-time evil world? I must say, freelance was fun and challenging to me but it’s not enough. I wouldn't say it's "restart". I have more to explore, more to experiment, most importantly more to learn. A lot more to learn. I would not want to be tied up in my small circle till like who knows when I’ll step out of this industry. Though this industry is bloody stressful, meeting crazy people, handling fuckup cases, but my passion still bloody here.. at least NOW they still are. Yeah some said I was stupid thinking this way.

Hmm.. I hate crossroads.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


I want to go Amsterdam. *grins*

but when? hmm... =(

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

a song someone sings

Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Friday, October 01, 2010

me need exotic places to exote

I want to go Turkey!!! *jumps jumps*

I've always love exotic places.
Places filled with colors, textures, cultures and architecture.

Kwangli just came back with her students like last week.
Browsing through their awesome pix on facebook.. i'm like green in envy.
I am in SO need to go for a holiday.
But no extra cash and no kaki.

So who can partner me go?
Sponsor me cash?

ok. i might upload my previous weekend getaways pix soon.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

If laaa....

If I had you, that would be the only thing I'd ever need...
If I had you, then money fame and fortune never could compete..
If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy..
If I had you....

eh, so where the f*rk are you???


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

head spinning like gasing

Sometimes when some decisions are made.. there's no turning back.
Fuck recently i made the wrong one... simply cos i'm a nice person.
No choice but to deal with it. oh fucking fuck. Challenge babyy..~

Screw you!!

Monday, September 06, 2010

i'm 26 !!!~

Dinner at Bar Italia, Changkat Bukit Bintang
Party at Velvet Underground, Zouk KL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!! hehehhee

Friday, July 30, 2010


abandoned huh?
I'm going to start a new blog soon.
But I'm not telling you the new address.
It's between me and me and well, me only. =)

Anyway.. I won't leave u here alone, emo blog.
Till the next night when I'm tired but ain't feel like sleeping, I'll be back.
Very soon.

Monday, May 24, 2010

"i'm-still-at-work" post

looking back at the last post..
oh well, I thought i might be blogging as usual again until more and more works start to hit me off..

blogging has been slow.. very slow indeed.
whenever I get some lil' free time, I would spend it all with my bolster and "seeding" pillows.. *grins*
I can even forget bout my lil dear blog.. hehe bad me.. baddd...

Very tiring I should say.. that's what work describes as...
I really hate having those emo days where suddenly you'll be thinking like..
Hey you.. why work so hard? Cut yourself some slack.
Life's fun and f8cking short.. Enjoy while you still can!!
And then next second, you answered a phone call and turned your hard cold stare back to your laptop where you start swearing harshly to yourself and clicking hard on your mouse and keyboard.. WHy fucking goddamnittt like WHY?

Hehe.. oh well. You know why. I know why.. WE all know WHY.
Anyway just need to blare it all out sometimes when we hit our "peak"..
Nada... lalalala..
Life's moving on fast pace.. It's May.
Frankly speaking. I'm contemplating over something for these 2 months..
Whether should I... or should I not? .. *deep thought*
but somehow it's urging me to just .. DROP it.. but then some things are pulling back the decision.
Hope I'm not being totally undecided until at the end of the day.. i'll freaking regret in not making the decision anu sooner and causing more "self-stress".. oh wtf man.

Dilemma dilemma..

Sometimes I just wished some dude will walk over and tell me..
"I'm your sandbag.. just attack me anytime anywhere you want.. just DO it"

Hmm.. Any volunteer?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


and I ALMOST DIED!!!!!!

almost blown off 41st floor balcony by a bloody strong gust of crazy wind..


some things just simply stand out

I've always like design.
Concepts, colors, textures.. ambience.. the feell...
How you can move just several things around one space...
within minutes... portraying totally different views,
sharing totally different feel with just a simple play of colors, textures and lighting.

Let's share some pix.. not to say that I like them in whole..
but some bits and pieces from the image that stands out..
where we can interpret them into another whole piece of different design.

Going online, surfing, reading books, browsing magazine.. exploring new places..
whenever you're in a sudden need or rush to bullshit advise your clients...
these things helped a lot in generating "sudden" ideas to bull provide genuine opinions..

i've always like raw design. rugged. bricks, concrete, a bold color that stands right out.
A texture that you'll never get bored of or "out-date"..
Modern can get easily bored off.. or just walk into Ikea. *grins*

I never like things too plain. No lining, no grains, no plush.. nah-uh.. *shakes head*
Well, I just can't never stand a place way toooo modern or so-called-self-proclaimed-minimalism for my own personal liking.
When your client tells you, they like simple simple.. minimalism.. little bit enough.. etcetc...
simply means.. no budget lor. *groans* so can save money to buy a 30k stupid couch that nobody will notice the branded logo.. and worst feels like some china-made polyestor sofa that made your backside itchy

Avant Garde not that bad either. Modern classical? hmm.. or maybe some vintage items standing out in front of a plain muddy boring color. yummy..

A designer's taste changes from time to time.
So bear with me.. beautiful people.



Sunday, March 21, 2010

guess i'm back.. or i'll be back... =P

Wow.. been centuries since I've last updated, huh? hehe
Kept reminding myself to.. well.. at least pen a few words here..
or whore a few pix.. but just kept slipping of my mind..
Been a very bad blogger huh... nahh oh well..


Ok.. I shall like MOURN... not grin.
Work has been tough. Very busy, stressful and kept coming..
Yah yah.. these are nothing big.. i'm just yada yada yada yada..
but sometimes i really need to talk somethings out.. well at least to just..
ermm.. blurt it all off my chest.. i just need to be EXpressive...
and a lil more appreciative maybe..
I'm still young rite.... only 26!!! *sly grin* long way to go... need time to partayyyy...

yeah speaking of party... yes.. *groans*
it's been another bloody century since I last party my pants off..
whyyyyyyy... cos time ain't enough.. or i'm just not finding time too.. huh huh huhhhhh!~

and yes again.. the pix below was taken like... on muharram..
where I have to be at site.. working on a public holiday...
sitting on the balcony of 41st floor.. looking down at one of klcc's entrances..
swarms of tiny humans walking in and out like nobody's biz..
luckily i brought my lappie.. and the weather was okay.. breeezyy.. until....

until I cannot tahan.. hahahha
I went to klcc.. get some late lunch at Dome's..
hanging there by myself.. watching people come and go.. MSN'ing of course..
ahhh loneliness kills... ugh~ until it was time for me to get back to site..

Always ask myself.. "Why work so hard? why??"
Not that I'm complaining bout work.. tho i do sometimes
I just still couldn't find a very very satisfyin answer to that question..

Okay enough of the work rubbish...

* * * * *

CNY? yahhhh WAY BACK then.. lol.. but where did I go?
Nahhh nowhere in particular...
Not even shopping or movies or clubbing...
Just home, or friends' houses, or relatives' houses.. everything under the roof..
Dancing from 1 house to the other.. hmmmm...

grumpy lil lady.. lol

giggling lil drunk..

she's a lil de-hydrated.. haha

cam-whore while gambling.. '


yours truly...
mak mertua kau.. hahaha