unavailing

There are some vain efforts to escape from reality.

accumulated stir

It's bizarre how one sentence from a particular someone can totally fucking ruin your entire day.
Words are so powerful that I would really really appreciate if you could think twice before saying anything.

Enough is enough.
Period.

work fork you

I tend to be over thinking stuff.
Tend to be too negative.

Tend to be over analyzing.

Tend to be over WTF.

My point is.. 

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where it was critical for you to make a decision in a relatively short amount of time?

I'm talking bout work.

The word that has the same quantity of letters with "fuck".

The word that rhymes with fork which sometimes I will use with the word "you" tagging behind.

Okay. Enough before I lose my sanity.

playing side by side

I think this is pure genius.
Just playing side by side and that's a great new song.

Songs:

- New York, I Love You but You're Bringing Me Down.
- Elevator to the Gallows.

Cool eh?
Thanks to Evan.

my humble abode

I've always wanted a place of my own. 

A place I can dwell inside, do whatever I want and leave the world out.

And I'm working on it. Saving money. Less shopping/travelling.

Work work work.. money money money. =P

As an interior designer, I can NEVER decide what I like for myself.
I tried doing my own moodboard in my spare time.. but never happened. Braindead.
One thing that is "still me" would be, dark cozy colors with a hint of bold "happy" color.
Posted some pix here to sorta combine my fav elements..

I once like this.. Hmmm.. Still fancy the different pieces of furniture in the mix of
bold and pastel colors but don't quite fancy the panther's head as the backdrop.
Maybe Audrey Hepburn in monochrome with a hint of red lips or just pastel rainbow strips.. 

Nice. I wonder if I will get bored with black. Hmm.. Apparently NOT. =P

The masculine straight lines are given a feminine kick with accents of
Monroe's lipstick red. Like!! A very personal touch.

Entire feel was right for a cozy place to come home to. Except maybe the
dining chairs.. too bony. And too many things happening at the ceiling.
A dark walnut timber floor would be a bonus effect. Anyway love it.

This is very Zen-ish. I only like the shadow casting on the floor.
A daily warm greeting from the morning sun. 

For young couples or a lone ranger, this concept is very well composed.
I would prefer to tame the look down by replacing that hot pink table with a  rugged
timber coffee table instead to bring out the mustard colors from the backdrop.

A perfect perfect PERFECT place for me to read my books.
Drowned in my jazzy songs with a hot cuppa, looking out on a rainy day.
Oh I want this NOW!!

Never thought a dark turquoise would add so much character
into the kitchen. Not a bad idea. =P

Looks a little cluttered but tastefully done. Maybe not so gungho photos.
Some classic ones, family photos. That will be nice.
Literally made my home very HOMEy, if that makes sense.

I need not a huge space but just a decent space to get cozy with my man and kids in future.
As for my single status now, a small studio apartment will keep me VERY satisfied.

Wonder how will my future abode be if I mixed all my favorite colors, textures and elements all in one place.

And back to work!! Gotta work hard to get my own place. =)

xoxo

forty-eight

I think I perasan lor.

sensed an existence

你存在，我深深的脑海里，我的梦里，我的心里，我的歌声里.

oh btw. me likey this.

(if only i can insert an emoticon with heartshaped eyes. i'll probably put 5. haha)

Goodnight.

caught up in the moment

Few weeks ago I was asked to sleep earlier day by day and me to not think so much but..
Lady Antebellum's Just A Kiss playing in the background now isn't helping much.
Feel like laughing. -_-"










Btw, I'm going fishing tmr!!! yay!!
Something different to look forward to.
I'm excited!! 40mins from KL is better than 40mins in KL!!


xoxo

I want to go back to sleep

I am up on a Friday at 8am which is a Public Holiday but felt like a Sunday.
Thoughts crammed up in my head now.
Fxked up.

back to flintstones..

Sometimes I can so unpredictable and...
Have the insane capability to do incredibly stupid things that I amazed myself sometimes.
I was in the midst of googling images for my moodboard few hours ago and somehow I stumbled across one of my blog links. Bizarre. Totally no connection to what I was searching online, but anyway that distracted me so much from work that I eventually started browsing and reading my old posts WHICH led to flashbacks of fking emo moments. And I read almost all the EMO labelled posts which brought back bollocks of *sniffsniff*. And I cried. Sooooo wtf, right?

This caught my attention..

"Lots of questions i've been asking myself lately which I can't seem to find the answer i want.
i want to live a satisfied life.
i believe in myself.
i want surprises.
i want things to just happen for the all the reasons it should.
I'm not worried bout life obstacles but i'm just kinda getting tired of it.
Ya ya i know i know.. i just started my life 'legally' in many things..
inclusive of being more responsible.. more shit-ass stuff happening around me..
where i need to "see the real society"..
but i'm just mentally tired sometimes..
need a good cry... possibly a good shoulder to have a good cry on..
just feel like letting all out.. then i bet i'll be fine.

i want too much out of me.. too much to expect..
don't ask me what i see myself in 10 years kind..
everyday i answered myself differently.. wanting different things..
sounds like unsatisfied bitch huh? ....


Speechless me? So whiny! Haha
I do sound a lil demanding huh?
A post I've put up 3 years ago.
Reading back, it felt like just 15mins ago.

I'm not going to "link-up" those past sappy big L word here.
I might .. Anyway bygones..



and I didn't finish what I supposed to do today. Damn.

my pen is in her random mood today

Aiks. still have birthday photos to post up here.
Hmm been weeks I have sorta forgot (whichactuallydefineslazy) to blog.
Sigh. My laptop is in ICU now, for 1 week already. It's the second week now.
They told me that he will be back in 3 weeks time when I admitted him in but I missed him so much.
Without him, I felt abandoned. Yes my laptop is a he. He works stronggggggggggg for me. lol.
Heading out.
Will pen more soon. =P

Btw, check this out.
I did a quick analyse on my Facebook activities. Haha how cool is this.
Click *here*

xoxo~

continuouscrap

nothappytoday.theangerpassedhenceiamkindaspeechlessnow.nothingmuchtoroarboutitnowthatihavefoundsomewaytodestressitearlierbutamstilluneasywithallthereunnecessarynuisance.crapman.whatthefuck.