Despite what happened yesterday & the days before, this morning I really woke up well… in a good mood. Obviously I’ll still think of him on the way driving to work (I’m not a white board that you can write & erase in a snap of fingers ok) but it wasn’t as bad as yesterday. Yesterday was really bad. And I mean REAL BAD. Anxiety, worries, inquisitiveness, annoyance, a big question mark, plus all the stress from work. Saturday night was the worst. Totally sleepless. Sunday turned me into a walking zombie. Called up ManYee and spend the entire day in Pyramid. Bought a expensive blouse that I actually don’t need it. Yesterday was in 1U with LayFong, bought the whole Lancome small make-up kit when I only intended to buy mascara at the first place. I'm planning to get a new perfume soon too. DKNY apple or GUCCI envy?? Shit. My ass is like printing money?!?!? But shopping makes me feel better. A tiring day of walking around and being ‘cheerful’ really exhaust me out physically, emotionally and financially.
which? help me choose? daringly sexy or flirtatiously fruity?
Gawd..
Today really seems much better. I hardly put much thought into it. More to like paying extra attention & extra effort in my work. Make it the last five days a seem-so-true-dream and now I’m back to reality.
Sigh.
Going to JB tomorrow for as-built drawings (TGV Tebrau). Spending a night there, so I guess I won’t be blogging for 2 days I think. Will be back in town on Thursday evening then hitting the clubs with ManYee & Paul. Ladies night. Friday working again. But I don’t care. I’m still under healing process.
Tomorrow won't be the same as today. Yesterday won't be today. And the past 5 days will never be near my future. I tried crying but my eyes are dry.
Some things happened for a reason. Some don't. But most do.
Funny thing is.. sometimes when you know truthfully that your conscience is right but yet you don’t want to admit it and continue to go ahead with whatever your heart wishes. It is not to say it’s wrong to do what your heart wishes but you gotta trust your own gut-feeling. It’s well.. the most important. Don’t lie to yourself. Don’t try to comfort yourself. When you console yourself, you’ll end up lying to yourself because you want to believe what you want and hope, and not what you see or feel. The negativity which makes you keep doubting never lies.
The moral of my story is to think with your brain, if you do whatever your heart wishes, you’ll get a bad omen. Love is something pure & simple, love comes naturally. If you force it, you’ll never get it. Even if you did, it’s just exterior wise only. Whatever. Just don’t bloody lie to yourself.
Like me.
Was cleaning my files back home yesterday. Clicked open one of my ‘photo albums’ folder. Went through some pictures of several partying & celebrations, and these few pics really caught my attention.
Again I am going to repeat that time really flies fast. Can’t believe it was our first gathering as college-mates (the whole damn sem 6 class) together & our last farewell too. It was before our graduation ceremony. End of year 2004, if I'm not mistaken. Well, dinner at Zen, hit RedBox, then mamaking session somewhere nearby till late night.
Everyone showed their true colours that night. Chloe started dancing. Veronica & Thor was so-couple like singing. Catherine & Minako is more into Miriam’s romantic ballads. Sorry for me, only hanging on English songs, coz I don’t read much Chinese. Hehe. I admit I’m a banana girl ok, but just half ripe. Chenxi, Lock, Farah, Angela, Yvonne, Berny & me sang a few like nobody's business.. some ‘actions’ really make us laugh our ass off, especially Chloe doing that 'Bad Boy' song act. LOL!
(from left :Minako, Veronica, Angela, Chloe, Farah) @ Zen Japanese, Sunway
Veronica & Farah @ Redbox Sunway
Mamaking session - 1. Lock & Chenxi (just let ur mind wander further on where her hands intend to grab) 2. This pic is only for Farah & Hooi Leng but I've got no idea what is Chenxi & Chloe thinking. (then again, when there're a camera, you gotta definitely hide it from Chloe. lol)
I don’t know. I felt weird.
Missing the times spent together.
Berny, Angela & Cat is in Aus. Minako back in Hongkong. Chenxi still in LUCT. Veronica & Lock in UK. Thor went missing in action. Chloe in UCSI,Cheras. Farah not sure yet. Yvonne's working in Klang. Me also working, Kota Kemuning, Shah Alam.
Conclusion – Thinking back, it was pretty fun. A blast.
"With the card they will be able to buy diesel at 15 sen less per litre than the new price.
“The Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Ministry has sent out letters to the operators who qualify for this scheme.”
The Prime Minister's Department also said the savings from the price increase would be used “to pay for development projects and improving the public transport system for the benefit of all people.”
The decision to increase the price of fuel was to overcome the impact of rising crude oil prices and to curb the increase in subsidies paid by the Government.
The announcement was made in a statement from the Prime Minister's Department at 10.30pm yesterday.
The retail price for petroleum products is being raised because last year the amount of subsidy borne by the Government was RM7.41bil whereas tax exemption stood at RM7.85bil.
“The burden of subsidy and tax exemption borne by the Government from January to February this year was RM1.19bil and RM1.44bil respectively,” the statement said.
