inflatable color bag

I like this photo.

It makes me happy.

Somehow.

comedy stand-ups?

Sigh. Days have been stressful and tired.. sometimes restless.

Need to find something else to do, or some events to go to...

hmm.. rather than the same old dining sessions and movie marathons. 

Went to two comedy stand-ups months ago. 

One way back at The Bees, Comedy Club and another was at PJ Live Arts Studio...

Enjoyed both tremendously. Took my stress off for a day or two. Well better than being uptight for days.

Wanted to go for Russell Peters but unfortunately couldn't get tickets for both his bloody shows.

Whatthehell~!! Instead we went for Andrew Netto's, one of the best comedic talents here.

Well at least I believe so. I mean, he performed the opening act for Russell.. 

He craps and jokes about stuff that we can easilyy relate to... and

I strongly believe in his life quote. Haha.

"Live Life To The Fullest, There's Plenty Of Time To Be Dead" 

How true is that?! GoddamnnnTruee!!! 

and yup!! Andrew I'm going to your shows very frequent!! so have more shows!! 

Any more to come?

the fat moral

sigh.
girls and their weighing machine and their blabbering mouth.

moral of the story. never accuse your mom (in a serious tone or jokingly manner, never work both ways or any other ways) to cause stubborn fats in you even though partially kinda a little true sometimes.
but just be good and eat or else you will have absolutely nothing to eat.

thanks to the sibling with an enormous mouth, now i have to starve... to death.. at home.
that's simply just.. sad.

*emo drums rolling*

split ends

left or right?
i'm literally not admitting the fact that i'm falling hard but not "otherwise".
i do not know what i am doing sometimes. i thought back hard telling myself no don't repeat that again but yet again I did the same "mistake". should i or not let it run continuously and end up disappointing my own conscience? yes i do have one.

i'm skeptical of taking a step forward. or should i try or should i just let it go?





p/s: i am back bloggy. at least i think i am now at this second.

unnecessary dilemma

I might be trapped in some emotional wreck that I am clueless how I got myself in and how to get myself out now. Darn. Should have known better that my confidence was flushed down possibly 4 years ago.
Need some un-flushing and escaping.

Another year just flew through..

New Year Eve '11 at Desa Park City

New Year's Pot Luck '11 at Amber's Home

Celebrates Christmas

 Christmas Eve '11 at House, G-Tower

Christmas Dinner '11 at Amber's Home

once upon my past..

what a love/hate friend said did get me thinking for awhile.
pretty similar to what I have always been thinking to myself but hearing it from someone straight..
words just bang you like a gust of windd.. the feeling just.. simply.. different. a little empty too.
i do wonder how i have become who i am today.. personality wise at least..
i was once called very naive and blur but who i am today.. i earned them.
for being so-called tough and independent are what i am striving for almost 7 years.
a year with Alvin changed my entire life, it was a very bad experience which tears can still easily flow anytime when i think back of the past. not because of him, but i felt very stupid of the actions and sacrifices i did.. decisions i've made.. i pity my past self.

since him, life ain't quite the same. it's like a hard slap waking you up like welcome to the fugly world.
i learnt the bad way to stand on my own feet, be passionate with what i like doing, setting life goals to achieve.. at least am still trying to achieve now. not giving up yet. complaints, emo moments, temperamental screamings are just part and parcel of everyday life facing the evil stress. a way of de-stressing.. i want to prove to myself that i can do something out of me. life is so short and fragile that sometimes it's not even enough to live in. there's so much i wish i can do but counting forward, just not enough time. i may sound selfish that i want to have a lot of things but i am not greedy in wanting things that i know are out of my league. i want my family to live better and i want myself to live a good life. I have not met anyone special in particular that can provide me with sense of security hence I cannot just sit here not doing anything waiting for his arrival right? i have to know how to live my own life. be independent.

am I surrounded with my subconscious walls that I literally did not know I build?
i am one who like to express myself emotionally.. spitting words right out of my mind which ended me up with either more friends or foes. i am not vengeful that's for sure. dramatically? maybe but not exaggerating.
romantically wise is definitely history. i no longer know how love felt like. how butterflies squeezing through the long intestines. i dare not trust what others have to say. romantic words, sweet talks are so far away from me. flirting is altogether a different thing comparing to how-i-know-he's-my-one thing.
i am not stating that i do not need a man in my life. I do. i want to have my own family. I want a perfect life, who doesn't? I just want a moderate very happy family. need not to have a villa on top of the hill, Barbie's Ken as husband, kids with Albert's IQ.. i just want... to be happy. and satisfied with life.

I do feel very lonely at times when i'm sad, tired and need someone to listen to me, to pamper me, to just give me a hug and tell me things will be fine. that person is always never there. 7 years is very long. very very long. to the extend, i almost believe romance will be the last thing that will ever happen in my life.

Patience is dying.

a quickie project

One of the projects I'm working on..
A quick one that took less than 2 months to complete the whole proposal process and fit-out works.
Handover of the unit estimated to be by next Wednesday, I hope, providing there aren't any more changes or add-ons.

after many rounds of amendments.. we shall see how the final outcome might turn out to be..

tell me what to do

I really do not know what she wants from me.
This wrong, that wrong, everything I do or say is wrong wrong wrong.
See me then get all snappish.. grumpy.
When I'm not there, she'll get all lovey with the rest..
the sight of me really disgust her that much huh?
I am at home too often that she thinks I'm a jobless freak that have to only oblige to her errands?
I am working, I have a company, I am sort of like a freelancer who is in a very busy industry.
There's a lot of things that I need to do. Why can she try to understand?
It's not like I never run her errands before. Nothing I do is ever enough.

So hard to consider?

feeling like a bitch

It's so freaking frustratinggg sometimes..
You might be wondering how could some people be sooo unreasonably selfish with their actions and yet still act as if there was nothing wrong about it or in fact they thought they were appropriate actions.
Whatthefuckkk man!!

A diamond in the Rough.

Louise agreed to go with me for the Aladdin musical at Sunway.
Been an avid fan with all sorts of musical. Yay.
The last musical I truly enjoyed was to fly all the way to Singapore and caught Lion King. *click*
The stage was small but the show was magnificient.
I can't wait for Aladdin.
Better way to spend our free time rather than window-shopping or movie marathon at home right?

I was googling bout this show after Huay-Pin told me it was okay to watch.. and i found that they're having a contest for the best caption stated for one of their fb image. *click*
Hopefully I can win some. Haha. The last time i won a contest was to Il Volo's showcase at Bentley.
The feeling of triumph over the radio station was overwhelming though it was a small win. *grins*




*fingers crossed*