my stubborn diva nose

oh flu.. i hate you...
can you pls go away.. like literally get lost...
ahhhhhhh hate the blocked breathingggggg...
Feeling so damn lethargic now. Tons of work piling up for the weekend.
I can't get sick. Sheeshhh.. *stressed*
Argh you're such a diva, you NOSE!!

Louise and my Eiffel

Was wearing my favourite bracelet from one of my dearest girlfriends.
Louise gave me Thomas Sabo for my 27th birthday after delaying for few months. =P
She added a charm of Paris Eiffel Tower, meaning to say she has literally "no money" to fly me to Paris and hope this charm will satisfy me for now. Haha.

Yup that's Louise.

Oh well, that explains it. Funny people do funny unexplainable things at times.

Took with PopBooth App with her Ipad. 

Good times last. yay.

passport photo ok?

*grins*

Make a good passport photo, huh?

5-Nov-2011

I was bored in our hotel suite in Penang.

Had to have fun to un-bore ourselves.

And this was my masterpiece. =P

me no see well. oh no.

I dress in balsamic today.

Haven't been working this weekend.

Was overcoming my "emo-breakdown" and yeah being plain lazy.

I filtered and clean my laptop's desktop screen, deleted over 20G of rubbish.

Rearranged my project list, site photos, drawing numbers etc etc.

And well at the same time, still watching Glee. Started on Season 2 already.

Cheerful watching this TV Series, seriously made me laugh with glee and also chills ran up and down my spine watching them sing really love ballads and old classics. 

Wow, love 'em.

Did almost everything with my laptop today and well, yesterday too but just no work. 

Oh wait, I did one 3D view last night at wee hours but took me like just 2 hours to complete that simple task and emailed to my client by this morning.

I'm so so so plain lazy when it comes to do work related WORK.

Visited my babysitter's brother who was diagnosed with Miller Fischer Syndrome. 

Sigh breaks my heart. Seeing elderly (but not so elderly yet, perhaps in 50s) getting all sorts of illness and stuff.. just made me appreciate life a little bit more these days. Have tons of funny thoughts running through my mind as I was doing my daily routine, talking to the people I talk everyday, caring bout the people I care all my life, trying to accept new people into my life without much selfish hesitation. I just want to be happy and free. 

Anyway, though I kept saying that i'm very lazy today, but I made dinner for my sister and me. Parents and lil brother attending my far-far-far cousin's wedding at Equatorial KL.

Sister will be attending her first SPM exam tomorrow. *fingers crossed* Do well, girl. 

Dinner I made tonight. Salad with cheese, garlic ham and balsamic sauce as sides..

and Pasta in Creamy Mushroom and Onion as main. 

One plate for both of us girls tonight and damn were we full. *grins*

We finished the entire tupperware of salad. Onion was kinda overpowering tho.

Cooking is fun when food tasted good or well, edible and no complaints.

Till then. 

xoxo

nothing dissolves with oblivious

yeah I don't get it sometimes.
I'm watching Glee now at the same time typing-in this post.
Trying to be glee, I guess.

I have a conversation with this particular "Mary" who do have huge impact in my life.
Hate the way Mary thinks of me sometimes. Full of negativity and pessimistic, Mary said.
Well not in exact words, but yeah NEGATIVE is always the "essence" to her preach.

I am not declaring myself as negative because I just want to be prepared. Pessimistic is so not right to describe my expressing opinions. I know we have to be optimistic at times, that's correct but not all the time because we have to be alert to whatever issues that you might face as nothing in the real world is like fairytale where everything end with happily ever after. We are not living Disney characters.

Aih I'm so not good in putting this metaphorically but I need to get it out.

Anyway, there's always an issue but I'll speak up my opinion but Mary will assume I'm being all not supportive and throwing poison ivy. I'm just stating the Pro and Cons and yes the consequences; in a very polite manner but.. YES!! BUT again.. but Mary only sees the Pro she proclaims and so-called Cons that she thinks are not valid. Not everything is to what one thinks, pls stand in all sorts of perspectives before you draw a conclusion so strong that we just have to obey to and case closed; no comments as we're be accused (ok too strong of a word) assumed we're being pessimistic. There are things that are right to your face but you're just too oblivious about it or maybe you just want things to go your way OR you just ignore their existence and thinking "Nah not happening.."

I've been in those shoes. I know what it is like, the fit, the effort, the responsibilities, the burden and sometimes peer pressure that you might think it's nothing. Not worth? then ignore la. Come on life ain't just about cutting people away or crossing them out with expensive your Mont Blanc pen. Life is about accepting and finding a way out that at the end of the day you won't be the one feeling sorry for yourself. If everything or everyone follows you around mimicking all your action and personality, that's probably your clone. I am sad. Depressed can be used to describe me sometimes.

I sit down sometimes and reflect of things that I've done previously or how I wish I could have done it differently and all those IF and SHOULD-HAVE will start to flood in. But then a friend once told me, one failure in the past will be your future success, simply because you need to realise your mistake and not repeat it again, in fact do something even better. With all Mary's assumption and pessimistic opinion about my negativity makes me very insecure sometimes. With one nod or sigh will affect my feelings. Sounds emotional ey? Mary's one great person that has such huge impact on me because I want her to be proud of me. I am sure she is but the way she's promoting them is quite tearing me up. Compliments won't hurt from time to time but ignorance will. I am not some strong shield that can protect my fragility from canon balls comments.

I just hate the feeling of being assumed before hearing me out and then makes me feel so so so insecure with myself. I'll have doubts with decision I have to make. I may look like I do have confidence, but sometimes it's faked. I need real confidence to boost myself up. Life's a stageplay.

Amber and her 11.11.11

Mommy, Baby and Daddy.

 Happy small family of 3.

 Strawberry Milk, Mommy, Baby Aden & his Old Date, yours truly. =P

 Happy Birthday Aunty Amber!!

Her first year celebrating as a Mommy to Baby Aden.

 Red Velvet Cake from La Manila.

"Getting a huge bite!!"

Oh damn

Ok I admit that somehow out of nowhere I miss him quite a bit lately even though I do not know why. I'm terrified too; it's like whatthefuckwentwrongwithme!!??

Felt better?
Err.. Nah.

i feel emo now.

Guess this week will be one of those badly-affected emo days.
It's like me asking myself repeatedly. "What the hell are you thinking?"
Be patience. It's fine to have none at the moment.

Oh work is not so "passionate" lately.
I'm feeling oh-so-brain-dead.

friends, fun and birthday.

Celebrated dear Uncle Lim's birthday at WIP Bangsar.
Nice hangout place. Happening at night, bustling crowd, happy hours.
Well, pretty quiet in the afternoon, good place to sit and have some work done.
A nice change from always hanging out at Starbucks.

Anyway we had a small surprise dinner for the birthday boy.. err uncle I mean.
5 friends since childhood 'era' gathered to celebrate one important man's birthday.
The 27th. Haha.

 

Happy Birthday Choon Wee!! =P

i would like to have..

I like this space. Nice furniture pieces and colors. Mix and matching with different design. Likey.
Don't really fancy the panther painting even though the colors are pretty much striking. Haha
Would like to have this kind of feel for design studio discussion table or maybe a nice dining set for my own single apartment if I have one. =P

Aiks. Dreams are big but pocket is empty.
Must work hard work hard.

updated & upgraded

Fanson was going on and on about the new iOS 5. How convenient and awesome it was.
I was in greeeeeeeen.
Was very busy yesterday, rushing crazy deadline for afternoon's meeting later. Need my phone to standby just in case crazy clients call hence why I can't upgrade during the day. Afraid it might take forever to load.

Fan was sharing the advantages and I could wait to upgrade mine as well. Haha how childish, huh? Anyway I finally manage to do it past 1am earlier today. Haha and everything took only like 20mins and ta-dah.. New iOS. Fan took almost few hours to just download it then update it. Lucky me.

2 things I really like bout iOS 5 are the volume side buttons which allows me to snap photos w/o having to press the middle button anymore which is so convenient AND the notification screen!!! Quite awesome really. Notify me bout my new messages, emails, calls without interrupting whatever I'm doing. It'll appear like a narrow banner at the upper part of my screen. So fking convenient and somehow private!! It won't appear like a big alert box that people beside me can read your messages and BEST is NO goddamn interruption while you're doing something else. Woww, Apple, you're genius!!

4 girls 3 dishes

Dinner with the young girls last night. Yup.. Tess, Jasmynn and Janet.

We were at Ben's General Food Store at Bangsar Village 1.

Planned to have our dinner at Plan B at first, then changed our mind to Ben's instead.

I missed the Ben's in Pavilion KL. Hmm.. *click*

Though both adapting the same Ben's label but different concepts were served. 

There's a lot of pizza at Ben's General Store. Pretty affordable.

Tasted much much better compared to Alexis which is also kinda overpriced.

Will be back here for more pizza for sure. 

From top:
1. Scorched Sweet Corn & Crabmeat with frisee, lime and mayo.
2. Chicken Parmigiana
3. Salmone & Spinach Pizza *thumbs up*