kids nowadays

I chopped off 6 inches of my hair last Saturday. Now it’s like probably just few inches off my shoulders. But then it was like almost half a year I didn't trim my hair dy. Then again, the stylist is cute.. well not exactly the cute range but I’ve always think he’s kinda bit macho cool cool look.. Haha.. so I don't really mind though. I'm not being flirty ok.. but he is just way too pleasant to look at... Haha..

Yesterday I was like talking to my sister, then she told me something that well.. switched me off. Firstly I was with LayFong at 1U last Saturday afternoon. Didn’t buy anything because of 2 reasons.. 1. Nothing caught my attention. 2. I’m so PK & so broke. Anyway so I was back in Klang around evening, planned to chop my hair next Monday but as I was like walking around alone doing nothing & waiting for my family to arrive (cause they wanna eat Pizza for dinner), so I went & cut my hair (to peep peep also, LOL).
So after dinner, my parents left first, leaving me & my siblings to walk around. As we were walking near the atrium area, my sister suddenly grabbed my hand and…

Sis : Look at that couple. The guy so so so TALL & the girlfriend so short. Aiyo..
Me : So? Does that concerns you? (but seriously.. the guy is way too tall than the girl but who cares.. love is not about heights)
Sis : No. But how can such a tall guy be with a short girl???
Me: (Annoyed) Don’t be so kepo ok. Just zip it.
Sis : Whatt.. I mean.. Look at their height.. How are they going to kiss then? Who bends down??? Aiyo.. Think also geli..

I smacked her head. I was speechless. I mean.. she’s only like 12 this year.. Normally she’ll like so stiff with her guy friends & will get easily irritated when her guy friends like wave at her or talk to her. Her friend's mom even ask her to stand 1 metre away from her guy friends for 'safety' purpose because she got her period this year. (The lady is nuts.. like as if you gonna get....whatever) Sigh.. Probably is puberty, hormones running around like nobody’s business. Maybe I’m oldie in my head or being protective over her.. but she just blew my mind off that night aite.

Another funny part is..
My brother (only 8) replied.. “The guy bend down la. Aiyo. You cannot expect the girl to get a ladder right??”

Aiks.. I’m really outta there. Kids nowadays… Sighhh..

first project completion

I’m in office now. Boss not in. Finished my scope of work. Nothing much to do. So just flipping through the files in my pc & saw some of the new TGV Seremban2 pics taken last year. Located at Jaya Jusco Seremban 2. I didn’t know there was a Seremban 2 till then. Haha. Anyway the TGV was completed by Nov 2005, I think, if I’m not mistaken. I was only there twice while the project is still on but not completely done, still getting on defects.

It was my first project involvement & completed since I started working. My boss was like saying, “Heyy..It’s your little baby!! Must go see see…” I was like.. “Errmm.. ookay..” But it was a nice feeling though. In the middle of well.. proud + happy + all-the-hard-work-and-OT-was-worth-it feeling. Hehe.

After all, it was my first project completion. Wow. From nothing on the ground till a big building is constructed.

1. during construction of the whole Jaya Jusco Seremban 2's building. 2. The interior of the cinema auditorium.

For my opinion, the main foyer ain't that nice as TGV Tebrau's. The ceiling is flat but at least there are some effects, so that it wouldn't look that boring, I guess. Haha. Don't ask me why it is so colourful. The client wants it that way. So no choice. The original design concept was so much different than now. It was way nicer & hipper.

1. the main entrance foyer(taken from access level) 2. (left) ticketing counter (right) candybar

1. corridor outside cinema 1 & 2. the entrance doors look a bit tacky. 2. victor - measuring tape (no Hilti that time) & me flipping through the plans. boring huh? hehe

the film - exorcism of emily rose

That time when the movie 'Exorcism of Emily Rose' released, dAMn it!! Nobody wants to watch with me. Wanted to buy dvd, but I know I'll surely keep tracking the movie till I won't enjoy the show. Was afraid to watch it on my own & all my friends were freaking out saying the preview is scary enough. Sigh. So this pic was taken as a 'reminiscence'. Haha. Nuts.

There's more new TGV to come.. babyyy...!!~ but scared I'll get bored of it.. right now still ok lar.. working on new TGV Kepong & Cheras.. Till then...

TGV tebrau, johore

I’m back. Went to Tebrau, Johor last week. Not for hols but to work. Sheeshhh.. Anyway was there at Tebrau City Jusco to do the TGV as-built drawings & defect with Kwangli, Victor & Faizal. 10 fricking cinemas man. So bloody tiring man.….

Measuring the whole building was really exhausting. Fortunately for us, just in time, David bought that Hilti. If not, it'll take us forever to finish the whole as-built measurements. Well, it's not THAT bad. At least it was a new experience. I mean, I wouldn't want to drive all the way from Klang to Johore, just to look at the new-built cinema. Yes, I'm involved in the project but it's still way too far. I know it's 20metres screen, largest in Malaysia but STILL.. it's FAR. It's like practically 4 bloody hours okk! It's in jaya jusco tebrau city. it's something like klang JJ but way bigger & way more expensive retail tenants. But for me, it's a so so shopping mall, not that nice to shop in, something like Putrajaya Alamanda. I still prefer One Utama though. Anyway back to the topic, i've got some pics to share with yall...

this is so typical entrance for TGV.

1. the main entrance foyer (left: ticketing counter, right: candy bar) 2. from the inside of the ticketing counter

1. candybarr!!! 2.postmix area.... the popcorn machine!!!!!!

1. the 'grand' entrance of CInema 1.the carpet is a bit messy tho. 2. interior of the CInema 1. it's quite dark when i took the pic. did some contrasting. a total of 600 seats man.. it's huge.

the big big 20metres screen. i didn't know behind the screen there are few fluorescent lights for the speaker or wiring technicians. we're standing under the screen with the client, so as can see we looked so tiny. lol.

1. i think it's cinema 3. it's smaller. 2. the corridor towards cinema 8 - 10.

the full set of the cinema projectors. cool huh? it's a great thing to be up at the projection room level. just keep in mind, people!! don't do anything cheeky or horny in the cinema because the projectionist up there.. can see everything!!!! and i mean EVERYTHING!!

There are still many pics to load but I'm plain lazy. Haha. Anyway when I was finally home that night, I was so restless.. Good thing we stopped by Basket Robbins on the way home. Banana Royale heal me halfway. Still, back in my own room, own roof is still the best. OWN BEDD!!! Slept like a pig. Thinking back.. so unfortunately it was Thursday night. Next morning, Friday still have to work. Arghh!!!

today

sucks

sucker

JOHNNY WONG!!!!!!!!! urghhh.. so feel like killing him today!!!
he is so bloody weird case.
sometimes like manja cute little puppy, sometimes is like a fart-none-stop porcupine.
today is so definitely not his day man.
throwing temper tantrums like as if he hits his period season.
weird f*ck

i'm like so fricking innocent ok! nabehh.. rude piece of pathetic shitz

you're late

Gum still swelling. Ulcers still hurting. Few have gone, hoping there won’t be new ones.

I got to know some news. Neither good nor bad. Been 11 days. If I say it's way too long, then again, it's only 11 days. I’m starting to feel nothing over this any longer.

From a friend, I was told, he say he’ll explain to me.

The reason.

His personal problems.

One day.

One fine day.

The problem now is.. do I still want to listen?

Or do I still need to know?

Too late.

help wanted

ulcer-attack!!

Ulcer is so bloody hurting. I don’t know how many bloody ulcers & boils I have in my mouth. Last time I checked ulcers on my tongue, my gums, and gums swollen like red chilly peppers. I mean, I’ve been sick since last Wednesday afternoon, the fever went away after 2 days but the ulcers start popping out like nobody’s business. It’s really terribly aching me. I can’t eat, can’t sleep, even drink hurts. I think I have mumps. Ought to consult the doctor for second time but I’m so not going to the same clinic I went the last time, nearby my house.

Damn that old lady. I mean, when you see a doc, you have to explain your symptoms or your pain to them right? Then they’ll check you up, ask you several questions then decide your medic? I went in. I told her I was having fever, suddenly feel very super cold during early mornings, dizzy, no appetite & very drowsy. She took my temperature & doesn’t ask me any shits more. She told me to drink more water & that I’m very heaty inside.
Well duh!~ tell me things that I don’t know please. Cost me 46 bucks for a less than 10-mins consultation, antibiotics, fever pills, flu pills & a bottle of vitamin C. Why do I need flu pills? Vitamin C probably is ok but flu? I didn’t mention I have flu alright. No wonder her business is getting worst. From 24 hours clinic became a clinic opened at 8am, closed at 8pm with lunch break lagi. While waiting for consultation, I read through her (self-written or her Malay nurse) articles on the walls, & found out.. NEW STRAITS TIMES became NEW STRAIGHTS TIMES, SMOKING became SMOCKING.

Total ridicule.
This is so the last time I’m there.

Oouchh! I’m still aching!!! Gums hurt. Ulcers hurt. And I’m at work. Just kill me, will ya!!!

slow long tears

I look up
as a tear rolls
slowly down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion
I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

i'm still sick

sigh.

I'm sick.

Heartache.

Headache.

Everything is aching.

How?

Can someone come to my rescue? Well, like for once??
How can some people be so paranoid? or so like well.. just being so not responsible over his doing or saying? Probably this is the new era people.

so not my day

Yesterday was fine.

I'm now sick.

I want to cry.

stand up for love

There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such trouble times
And every child that reaches out
For someone to hold
For one moment
They become my own

And how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

I’m inspired
And hope
For each and everyday
That's how I know that things are going to change
So how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up man!
And the rest will follow
From the forgotten
And From the Unloved

I’m gonna sing this song,
And I believe
That in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up
for life
stand up and sing
Stand up
For love

For love.

delayed

JB trip postponed. Till next week.
OT every night from tonight except Thursday. Seriously need to de-stress myself.
Working is really like living hell.
Then again, everything to me now is like living hell.
Anyone want a free ticket?

it's all gone

Despite what happened yesterday & the days before, this morning I really woke up well… in a good mood. Obviously I’ll still think of him on the way driving to work (I’m not a white board that you can write & erase in a snap of fingers ok) but it wasn’t as bad as yesterday. Yesterday was really bad. And I mean REAL BAD. Anxiety, worries, inquisitiveness, annoyance, a big question mark, plus all the stress from work. Saturday night was the worst. Totally sleepless. Sunday turned me into a walking zombie. Called up ManYee and spend the entire day in Pyramid. Bought a expensive blouse that I actually don’t need it. Yesterday was in 1U with LayFong, bought the whole Lancome small make-up kit when I only intended to buy mascara at the first place. I'm planning to get a new perfume soon too. DKNY apple or GUCCI envy?? Shit. My ass is like printing money?!?!? But shopping makes me feel better. A tiring day of walking around and being ‘cheerful’ really exhaust me out physically, emotionally and financially.

which? help me choose? daringly sexy or flirtatiously fruity?

Gawd..
Today really seems much better. I hardly put much thought into it. More to like paying extra attention & extra effort in my work. Make it the last five days a seem-so-true-dream and now I’m back to reality.

Sigh.

Going to JB tomorrow for as-built drawings (TGV Tebrau). Spending a night there, so I guess I won’t be blogging for 2 days I think. Will be back in town on Thursday evening then hitting the clubs with ManYee & Paul. Ladies night. Friday working again. But I don’t care. I’m still under healing process.

Tomorrow won't be the same as today. Yesterday won't be today. And the past 5 days will never be near my future. I tried crying but my eyes are dry.

some-things

Some things happened for a reason. Some don't. But most do.
Funny thing is.. sometimes when you know truthfully that your conscience is right but yet you don’t want to admit it and continue to go ahead with whatever your heart wishes. It is not to say it’s wrong to do what your heart wishes but you gotta trust your own gut-feeling. It’s well.. the most important. Don’t lie to yourself. Don’t try to comfort yourself. When you console yourself, you’ll end up lying to yourself because you want to believe what you want and hope, and not what you see or feel. The negativity which makes you keep doubting never lies.

The moral of my story is to think with your brain, if you do whatever your heart wishes, you’ll get a bad omen. Love is something pure & simple, love comes naturally. If you force it, you’ll never get it. Even if you did, it’s just exterior wise only. Whatever. Just don’t bloody lie to yourself.

Like me.

5 days

A relationship started so fast & ended even sooner.

Better still, it ended with no notice.

Weird, huh?

Yet it was only 5 days..

only.. 120 hours

only.. 7 200 minutes

only.. 43 2000 seconds

It was & still is hard to believe that it actually happened.

Haha.

friendster??

what the hell?
my testimonials all gone.
why?
don't f'cking ask me.
damn.

long ago story

Was cleaning my files back home yesterday. Clicked open one of my ‘photo albums’ folder. Went through some pictures of several partying & celebrations, and these few pics really caught my attention.

Again I am going to repeat that time really flies fast. Can’t believe it was our first gathering as college-mates (the whole damn sem 6 class) together & our last farewell too. It was before our graduation ceremony. End of year 2004, if I'm not mistaken. Well, dinner at Zen, hit RedBox, then mamaking session somewhere nearby till late night.

Everyone showed their true colours that night. Chloe started dancing. Veronica & Thor was so-couple like singing. Catherine & Minako is more into Miriam’s romantic ballads. Sorry for me, only hanging on English songs, coz I don’t read much Chinese. Hehe. I admit I’m a banana girl ok, but just half ripe. Chenxi, Lock, Farah, Angela, Yvonne, Berny & me sang a few like nobody's business.. some ‘actions’ really make us laugh our ass off, especially Chloe doing that 'Bad Boy' song act. LOL!

(from left :Minako, Veronica, Angela, Chloe, Farah) @ Zen Japanese, Sunway

Veronica & Farah @ Redbox Sunway

Mamaking session - 1. Lock & Chenxi (just let ur mind wander further on where her hands intend to grab) 2. This pic is only for Farah & Hooi Leng but I've got no idea what is Chenxi & Chloe thinking. (then again, when there're a camera, you gotta definitely hide it from Chloe. lol)

I don’t know. I felt weird.
Missing the times spent together.
Berny, Angela & Cat is in Aus. Minako back in Hongkong. Chenxi still in LUCT. Veronica & Lock in UK. Thor went missing in action. Chloe in UCSI,Cheras. Farah not sure yet. Yvonne's working in Klang. Me also working, Kota Kemuning, Shah Alam.

Conclusion – Thinking back, it was pretty fun. A blast.

Summon or Saman?

Got a "special invitation letter" from URUSAN SERI PADUKA BAGINDA.
When? 16/2/2006
Where? ELITE Highway.
Berapa compound? RM150
Why? Speed detected. I was only 110km/j only ler.. but the limit was at 90km/j lar...
Rules are so mend to be broken, right? And this is what I've get in return. Hehe.
Anyway the weird thing about summons is that, why when we're so-called 'punished' because of our selfishness on road, we still get some discounted price from them?
Summons also can pay in a discounted price?!?!
WOw..
Well, then again, please remember we're living in Malaysia.