Wednesday, April 12, 2006

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I'm really not in a mood and rather temperamental these days. To me, there are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. The end comes when we no longer talk with ourselves. It is the end of genuine thinking and the beginning of the final loneliness. The remarkable thing is that the cessation of the inner dialogue marks also the end of our concern with the world around us. It is as if we noted the world and think about it only when we have to report it to ourselves.

At times it's such a straightforward sort of colour. I never squint at a black tee shirt, wondering if it goes with my black jeans. I never have to get up in the morning, thinking "I wonder what colour I'll wear today." And black goes with anything. As long as the anything is black. And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, that myth is more potent that history. I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts - that hope always triumphs over experience - that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.

Despair makes a despicable figure, and descends from a mean original. 'Tis the offspring of fear, of laziness and impatience; it argues a defect of spirit and resolution, and often times of honesty too. I would not despair, unless I saw misfortune recorded in the book of fate, and signed and sealed by necessity.

Paranoid?

chinese opera LIVE in kota kemuning

Today is definitely gonna be bad. It's either today or tomorrow.
I'm just sitting here, waiting... and waiting.. and waiting.. to see what's gonna happen next.
And I really got this gut feeling that it's gonna be uglyy, and I mean it UGLYYY!!!

12 more days till the end of my working life this month before I proceed with my degree next year. And another feeling in me is that, it's gonna end sooner than 12 days to come and it ain't my fault.. Aww.. I'm gonna miss here.. Peaceful Kota Kemuning... :P

Sighh.. Ending when? Maybe today? Who knows? We're about to find out.
Ughh.. I hate the feeling of curiosity.
Damn.

Monday, April 10, 2006

today - SURPRISE ! !

Today ain't a good day. Got some really really surprising news this morning which I never in this life would actually expected it to happen. I mean, I know he's bad.. but not THIS bad. Sheeshhh.. This bloody world is like so full of sabotages & back-stabbings. The world nowadays is really so materialistic. You can never trust anyone even your partner. Haha.. Joke man. As the old-y Chinese quote I used to hear, somewhere I can’t recalled, goes, ‘Either me die, or you die’ Haha.. You think this quote exists? Heheh.. Paisehhh..

Anyway ever since I’ve started working, sigh.. the meaning of ‘life’ to me has like utterly changed and I actually start to appreciate my family more. Knew that they'll back me up no matter what. Probably I finally realized that money don’t come easy, even though I used to spend money like my ass is printing money. Do you again feel that whenever you wanna buy something that you seriously don’t need but dangerously like, you’ll just end up giving yourself tons of stupid idiotic reasons so you’ll just buy that piece of shit.. Sigh.. So sound like me. Haha.. But I’ve changed. Somehow.

Working?? To face all sorts of difficulties including your bosses’ attitudes, clients’ craps, suppliers’ silly approaches & etc etc.. Wouldn’t it be nice if I’m like back in high school?? Haha.. No concern on anything important except old wrinkled teachers, boring examinations & stupid quizzes? I mean.. you don’t have to worry what to wear to work the next day or the next next day.. or whether did your screw up your last project? Or did you accidentally offend your boss or colleagues with your way-too-straight-forward conversations? Haha.. You think end of the month is the best time? Why? Get salary? But then end of the month is the most PK time of the whole bloody month!!! Sometimes I really hope that as I was walking down any shitty pavement in KL, I’ll just find a bloody stack of fresh REAL cash. ArrghhH!! Dream ON!!

Nevertheless, I’m truly lazy to elaborate more about today. Time passed super slow. Everyone look so stressed in the office & some old hag looked as if he has some sneaky smelly cheese up his sleeves. My friend just called yesterday, shouting out loud, “This bloody world is so filled with pretentious people. And there’s nothing much you can do except to BEAR with it!!!”

Chao!~

nice ?


a bit aunty issit?
feel like wanting it. yet it's white. can't get it locally though. damn.

Friday, April 07, 2006

rushing for rush

It’s been a long long time since I last went clubbing unless you consider ChoonWee’s Zeta Bar Bash ‘clubbing’. Work-life (for me) is really tiring for spending the whole night out shaking your asses & ‘fishing’. Anyway from 4pm – 6.30pm yesterday was quite hectic for me as I really want to finish my work & not spoil my evening plans. Well, fortunately the night was saved.

Alright. A stupid thing to confess. I have never been to Rush ever since it opened, which I don’t know when either. From what I’ve heard, it is always packed, it’s cool and other positive craps. So that day when yumcha with Ray, I told him I might try Rush out. He told me, “Mai lar.. Sibeh la-la larrr…” Obviously I asked him why. And again he replied, “Got Britney Spears, chinese songs & other technos or whatever beat they called it.” So I was like okayyy.. but still end up there simply cos I really wanna know what was the atmosphere like. Haha. Typical curious shit.


So. Went to Rush last night with ManYee & Paul. Haha. Why? To de-stress by doing something fun & yesterday was Ladies’ nite. The night wasn’t that bad at first until around 1am. The music.. erm.. well.. let’s put it this way. I won’t enter Rush voluntarily anymore unless someone forces me to.

Paul, me , ManYee @ Paul's room before dinner. They insisted on taking this 'self-pic'.

1. Paul...!! Run.. RUN.. fasterr... It's coming!! And yet he's laughing. 2. Paul again. Dinner @ BurgerKing. Yes, I know I look stupid.


blur & censored (if you can find where) who's fault in taking this pic so secretly? TENG PO HWA


haha. bodoh lengzai paul @ rush. *The guy behind him is really really cute*


ManYee & me @ rush. I'm like sweating like hell & she's like so dry.

Fishing. Failed. Kena fish? Almost. But not my type so therefore NO. But he’s good in shuffling though. He passed me a drink which I've got no idea what's mixing inside. I took a gulp, & passed the whole glass to Paul to finish it. (I gotta work today ok). Then we're like next to each other, he put another drink on the table. I straight away pass the drink to Paul. Haha. So thanks to Paul, finished 2 full glass of whatever the liquid inside. Lol.

Met bloody Eric there & yet he go bring his 'unofficial' chiq. Teruk sial. His 'chiq' gave me an impression that she like gonna bash me up any minute (she look like a boxer to me) if I 'flirt' with her bf which is my EX. Hello?? Haha. Anyway later he intro me & ManYee a super rich dude (according to him la). The music is blaring so loud, I hardly can hear him. He bought us drink which we both didn't finish. Hahaha. Unintentionally okayz.

And Paul look so sad case. Why? No chiq kua. Got a couple of young sassy chiqs next to our table but he say not his type wor. So forget it lor. Haha.. Maybe he chickened out. LOL!

Well, a night of clubbing, a full day of work. No matter what, life still kinda sarks in a way. I'm sleeppyy...

Thursday, April 06, 2006

guess what sucks the most!

Tomorrow wanna call tender when little shits are only done & layout is not officially confirmed.
WowWw. . ! ! ! ! ~~ ~ ~ ~
Alright. Gotta quit blogging for now. Start back on the bloody plans if I wanna leave on time.
If I can succeed, I'll be the next Superman & Lois Lane paired up.
Farks.!~

Excitingggggg.....~

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Johnny is "dead"

Today is really quiet in the office, but that bloody renovation thingy next door is really killing me. So freaking noisy. Sounds like some rude giant is farting explosively none-stop for hours. Gawdd!! It's killing me physically, emotionally & mentally.. spiritually too.. Whatever. Ignore me. I'm blabbering.
Boss on MC today. Yay!! Hahaha.. But there's still work to do, gotta start on the condo material sample board soon. After blogging tho..
So I was surfing thru the net for some dreams interpretation. Last night I dreamt that Johnny was dead. Damn man. Involved in a car accident that probably wasn't his fault, I think. Anyway, I saw his coffin & flowers & all but no photo. Haha. Well, I didn't even look at his dead corpse or photo or anything else but I just KNOW it's him. Ishhh.. speaking of 'pantang-ness'.. I was like so terribly sad, thinking.. oh gawd.. so young & so dead. Sigh. I mean, the feeling was so dreadful. When I woke up, my heart was throbbing though it was only a dream but yet it seems real. So i sms him, & guess what he replied... "so when I was dead, did you cry?"
Ughh! shouldn't have told him though. Sick bugger.
Getting more & more restless every second. Thanks to the noise-farting pollution. Somethings just makes me wonder.

can you spot the 2 corns (twin towers) & kl tower? Malaysia landscape or urban design is so clustered. I mean, look at aussie's & the states. At least it's more pleasant to look at.



1. manhattan city & nyc. 3d version. 2. looks much better than kl. Haha. some nationalistic shit I am. I still love my country ok.

melbourne. nice. looks 'manageable'
Forgive me. I'm just so bored.

"In our dreams we are closer to our real self than in waking life. The hideous or pleasing incidents seen and heard about us in our dreams are all of our own making, they reflect the true state of our soul and body, and we cannot flee from them unless we drive them out of our being by the use of good thoughts and deeds, by the power of the spirit within us."

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

LayFong & Takeshi

Last Saturday I went to UCSI to apply for my IA degree with ManYee & Paul. It was their Open Day tho. Met up with Kelvin & Diana. Well, obviously they're like trying to 'sell' their school to us.. It was not that bad of the module but it's like definitely better offer than Limkokwing. Eventhough previously I was from Limkokwing for my ID diploma but I seriously won't even think of going back there for my degree. Don't ask me why though. For me, it's just not as good as it seems it'll be.

Never mind that. Then another main purpose of going all the way to Cheras is because we want to go to Giant Cheras for the tarot card guy. 30 bucks for 30 minutes. Ask-all-you-want. Whether to believe it or not.. It's so your choice. But damn.. close shop pulak!! till 3rd April. Probably going down there again, I guess.. Possibly with LayFong if I'm not mistaken. Supposedly she's coming with me for my registration but too bad for her as her eye was swollen & she's like keep thinking of Takeshi Kaneshiro. Haha.. shitty of her.. Last night around like 4am in the morning, I received a sms from her saying, "Pushpa once told me - treat the person u love like a bird. Let if fly away & if it returns, the bird is yours to keep. Or else, get another faithful bird." I woke up around like 8am, drowsily saw this sms & went @!@$#%@?????? Haha. She told me the bird is her dream guy Takeshi & the 'quote' is her words of wisdom to me.. Don't get me started with her 'story' of 'one night of paid penetration'. And also the bodoh GUCCI jokes. Full of un-real & never-will-come-true craps. Damn man. We're like always laughing our asses off.. Hahah.. Blur case~~

Now I'm like sitting in the office, doing absolutely nothing. Gonna help ManYee after she completed her drawings. Sigh. My TGV Corporate office is like so messed up. Boss wanna call tender soon but now the client called him up last night, wanna change some of the layouts. Fuiyohh.. mana boleh la at this time.. THEN AGAIN, client's the BOSS of all BOSSES!! Sheeshh.. Life in work is like getting.. more negative in a way sometimes..

Additional 2 bloggers in my list today. KwangLi & HuiChuan. Newbies in blog & just now the scenario in the office was like just hilarous. Lazy to explain tho. Gonna check thru my plans now. Back to work.

Thursday night. Meet at rush k?

counting days...

handed in my resignation letter last week.
18 more days to go..
ughh!~

Thursday, March 30, 2006

kids nowadays

I chopped off 6 inches of my hair last Saturday. Now it’s like probably just few inches off my shoulders. But then it was like almost half a year I didn't trim my hair dy. Then again, the stylist is cute.. well not exactly the cute range but I’ve always think he’s kinda bit macho cool cool look.. Haha.. so I don't really mind though. I'm not being flirty ok.. but he is just way too pleasant to look at... Haha..

Yesterday I was like talking to my sister, then she told me something that well.. switched me off. Firstly I was with LayFong at 1U last Saturday afternoon. Didn’t buy anything because of 2 reasons.. 1. Nothing caught my attention. 2. I’m so PK & so broke. Anyway so I was back in Klang around evening, planned to chop my hair next Monday but as I was like walking around alone doing nothing & waiting for my family to arrive (cause they wanna eat Pizza for dinner), so I went & cut my hair (to peep peep also, LOL).
So after dinner, my parents left first, leaving me & my siblings to walk around. As we were walking near the atrium area, my sister suddenly grabbed my hand and…

Sis : Look at that couple. The guy so so so TALL & the girlfriend so short. Aiyo..
Me : So? Does that concerns you? (but seriously.. the guy is way too tall than the girl but who cares.. love is not about heights)
Sis : No. But how can such a tall guy be with a short girl???
Me: (Annoyed) Don’t be so kepo ok. Just zip it.
Sis : Whatt.. I mean.. Look at their height.. How are they going to kiss then? Who bends down??? Aiyo.. Think also geli..

I smacked her head. I was speechless. I mean.. she’s only like 12 this year.. Normally she’ll like so stiff with her guy friends & will get easily irritated when her guy friends like wave at her or talk to her. Her friend's mom even ask her to stand 1 metre away from her guy friends for 'safety' purpose because she got her period this year. (The lady is nuts.. like as if you gonna get....whatever) Sigh.. Probably is puberty, hormones running around like nobody’s business. Maybe I’m oldie in my head or being protective over her.. but she just blew my mind off that night aite.

Another funny part is..
My brother (only 8) replied.. “The guy bend down la. Aiyo. You cannot expect the girl to get a ladder right??”

Aiks.. I’m really outta there. Kids nowadays… Sighhh..

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

first project completion

I’m in office now. Boss not in. Finished my scope of work. Nothing much to do. So just flipping through the files in my pc & saw some of the new TGV Seremban2 pics taken last year. Located at Jaya Jusco Seremban 2. I didn’t know there was a Seremban 2 till then. Haha. Anyway the TGV was completed by Nov 2005, I think, if I’m not mistaken. I was only there twice while the project is still on but not completely done, still getting on defects.

It was my first project involvement & completed since I started working. My boss was like saying, “Heyy..It’s your little baby!! Must go see see…” I was like.. “Errmm.. ookay..” But it was a nice feeling though. In the middle of well.. proud + happy + all-the-hard-work-and-OT-was-worth-it feeling. Hehe.

After all, it was my first project completion. Wow. From nothing on the ground till a big building is constructed.

1. during construction of the whole Jaya Jusco Seremban 2's building. 2. The interior of the cinema auditorium.

For my opinion, the main foyer ain't that nice as TGV Tebrau's. The ceiling is flat but at least there are some effects, so that it wouldn't look that boring, I guess. Haha. Don't ask me why it is so colourful. The client wants it that way. So no choice. The original design concept was so much different than now. It was way nicer & hipper.

1. the main entrance foyer(taken from access level) 2. (left) ticketing counter (right) candybar

1. corridor outside cinema 1 & 2. the entrance doors look a bit tacky. 2. victor - measuring tape (no Hilti that time) & me flipping through the plans. boring huh? hehe

the film - exorcism of emily rose

That time when the movie 'Exorcism of Emily Rose' released, dAMn it!! Nobody wants to watch with me. Wanted to buy dvd, but I know I'll surely keep tracking the movie till I won't enjoy the show. Was afraid to watch it on my own & all my friends were freaking out saying the preview is scary enough. Sigh. So this pic was taken as a 'reminiscence'. Haha. Nuts.

There's more new TGV to come.. babyyy...!!~ but scared I'll get bored of it.. right now still ok lar.. working on new TGV Kepong & Cheras.. Till then...

Monday, March 27, 2006

TGV tebrau, johore

I’m back. Went to Tebrau, Johor last week. Not for hols but to work. Sheeshhh.. Anyway was there at Tebrau City Jusco to do the TGV as-built drawings & defect with Kwangli, Victor & Faizal. 10 fricking cinemas man. So bloody tiring man.….

Measuring the whole building was really exhausting. Fortunately for us, just in time, David bought that Hilti. If not, it'll take us forever to finish the whole as-built measurements. Well, it's not THAT bad. At least it was a new experience. I mean, I wouldn't want to drive all the way from Klang to Johore, just to look at the new-built cinema. Yes, I'm involved in the project but it's still way too far. I know it's 20metres screen, largest in Malaysia but STILL.. it's FAR. It's like practically 4 bloody hours okk! It's in jaya jusco tebrau city. it's something like klang JJ but way bigger & way more expensive retail tenants. But for me, it's a so so shopping mall, not that nice to shop in, something like Putrajaya Alamanda. I still prefer One Utama though. Anyway back to the topic, i've got some pics to share with yall...

this is so typical entrance for TGV.

1. the main entrance foyer (left: ticketing counter, right: candy bar) 2. from the inside of the ticketing counter

1. candybarr!!! 2.postmix area.... the popcorn machine!!!!!!

1. the 'grand' entrance of CInema 1.the carpet is a bit messy tho. 2. interior of the CInema 1. it's quite dark when i took the pic. did some contrasting. a total of 600 seats man.. it's huge.

the big big 20metres screen. i didn't know behind the screen there are few fluorescent lights for the speaker or wiring technicians. we're standing under the screen with the client, so as can see we looked so tiny. lol.

1. i think it's cinema 3. it's smaller. 2. the corridor towards cinema 8 - 10.

the full set of the cinema projectors. cool huh? it's a great thing to be up at the projection room level. just keep in mind, people!! don't do anything cheeky or horny in the cinema because the projectionist up there.. can see everything!!!! and i mean EVERYTHING!!

There are still many pics to load but I'm plain lazy. Haha. Anyway when I was finally home that night, I was so restless.. Good thing we stopped by Basket Robbins on the way home. Banana Royale heal me halfway. Still, back in my own room, own roof is still the best. OWN BEDD!!! Slept like a pig. Thinking back.. so unfortunately it was Thursday night. Next morning, Friday still have to work. Arghh!!!