HELL vs HAEL

13 May 2006

A little bird flew in yesterday evening. Told me something that I should know months ago, but no, this little bird decided to only tell me now. Speaking of bad timing, everything that happened between this bird and me is always wrong timing. Nothing fitted well. Probably this is our ‘fate’. Maybe we’re never meant for each other.

Anyway this post is not about this birdie & me, it’s about the latest update of a ‘chicken’ story. A chicken that I’ve once owned for 5 days. Running away from reality is really sucking, huh? Kissed me on the cheek by daylight, whispered ‘I love you’ & suddenly the chicken was totally gone from the picture by dark. I mean, maybe things got tough or introverted, and yet He chose to hide away from the rest of the world, especially me... Fine with me. What’s the point of pushing Him when He has no intentions of facing you anymore right? People always say life is full of choices. But no one mentioned fear. No one mention the fear of facing all the obstacles that going to stumble through your way.

the REAL situation
You did a silly mistake, a big one in your life, you shared it with me, I talked you out, you asked me to hold you hand & face it together… I said fine though I told you everything is on a fast pace for us. That night, you disappeared. I was anxious. Duh~ obviously. I thought you were in danger, injured or a free one-way ticket to HELL. First night – no news. Second night – still no news. Five days passed – just a sms quoting ‘I’m sorry to make you worry. I need some time to cool my own problems. Don’t worry.”. A month – no calls, no sms, no news, nothing, nil - zilch. Yesterday? All I’ve heard is you bloody backstab me for no f//king reason.

the 7 Stupid measures
1. Don’t tell me everything if you plan to backstab me one day. Obviously I’ll stab you back in return, probably twice as hard. Vain.
2. Don’t come begging for my pity that all your friends always betray you. If you know the meaning of ‘friends’, your friend won’t make you a ‘betray-hobby’ & you won’t crap so much about your ‘brother’ friend who I’m also closed too.
3. Don’t exaggerate your past with me. I have no concern & curiosity in that. In fact, you’re making yourself sound foolish & ‘big-piece’. Exaggerating = lies. And no one likes history.
4. Don’t go telling, saying that one day you’ll explain to me. I’m sorry dude. Too late & ain’t concerned me. You die, your problem. I’m cruel? You made me.
5. Don’t deny any shits you crap.
6. Don’t think you snatch me away from someone else, then I’ll let you cop a feel on me?? I’m not that easy for you to pounce on. Pervert.
7. You’re born stupid & pure chicken. I’m sorry I can’t cure you. In fact, who wants you cured?

the good
One immature blind ass, with no light at the end of the tunnel.
Guess we’re not in a one way street. And thank god for that.

the question mark

- it's either He is really a BAD assss

- or the bird is an exaggerated LC

hotel california

Today's tutorial wasn't that bad. Did some short research on the kites, aerofoils etc etc. Found out more bout Leonardo Da Vinci flying machine & how he got the idea from the birds. Damn him man. This guy seriously know a lot of shits. What also he wanna to be a part of. Too bad he's so dead that he got so famous now. I can't wait for that DaVinci Code movie ler. Hope it's really that good as the book. It'll really be much disappointing if it's not. Hmm.. I'm thinking of buying that big DVC book with pictures in it. Do you think I should? It's costly though. Sighh.. Start school, no income. PK dyy..

Yesterday's Minor class was actually a concept design module. All about concepts & themes. In the states, they're called the entertainment designers. Saw some of Redzwan's previous sketches & presentations. My jaw fell. I mean it's prety impressive, and that was what I have to do (not as good laa) for this module. Wahhh.. tension & stress on my shoulders man. First assignment given again - INTERPRETATION. Draw or sketch out anything that you can interpret from the song "Hotel California" by the eagles. Aiyoooo....

Can someone give me a hand.. draw me to HELLLL!!!!!

waiting for class

Just finished my Building Science lecture. About sustainability development. Global warming, the earth, Easter Island, ecosystem etc etc etc.. Seriously I only understand half of the lecture. It's been such a long long long time since I've touched on science-y things. Anyway it was interesting though to learn some really good stuff today & it actually reminded me on how seldom I read the papers. I mean I do read papers but more on duh.. TV Guide, comics, news such as who got raped, fire, dead, accident etc etc etc. Seldom on environmental & politics news. My lecturer, Lin Lin was talking about this show - The Day After Tomorrow. I wanted to watch it when the movie came out but didn't at last because Eric told me the movie was way way way boring & lotsa lotsa lotsa of words. I thought the preview was good but he said not worth the bucks. Sigh. Now I gotta find the dvd & watch it. Same goes to Waterworld. Ishhh.. today already got assignment. 5-minutes presentation on any environmental news issues from the papers. How? Anyone help to suggest a good topic for my presentation??? Pretty pleasseee... Anything on which animal is gonna extinct or which new species is found, or tornados, hurricanes.. anythingg!!!!

easter island, once a sub-tropical island turned biological waste at 1722A.D.

AND I haven't start on my Archi Design3 assignment yet. Damn.. I don't know how to start actually. That's why I stuck myself in the com lab trying to do some research on flying & floating. Hahah.. oh ya. Com Lab cannot print gehhh... no wonder the resources fees so cheap. Ceh. oh ya again!! the food is super cheap. 1 buck for a plate of fried rice with egg. Hhehehe.. Gotta head back to work. Till then..

p/s : my house phone line is backk!!!! cheerss!!!

today - i'm bored

First Assignment 08 May 2006
Finally the first class started. Interior Architecture Design 3. Two sems merged in a class. Only 3 girls in Sem 4 - me, Farah & Phoenix. Then there’s Sem 5 – Annie, Chloe, Tung & Darryl. Merely seven in a class. Sigh. Lesser chances to ponteng dyy. Added an optional subject – Building Science : Designing for Sustainability. Still can change my mind till 19 May.

So anyway, got my assignment today. Again researches, proposals, design & presentations. Err.. fly kite.. err.. how airplane fly.. em.. turbulence, aerofoil, errr.. principles of flights?? Redzwan asked us to learn how to fly a kite & how a kite fly ‘cause our task is to make a kite that can fly. Not those ordinary diamond shape kite. But something different in its shape & materials, I guess. Further, marks will be based on whether our kite can fly (& float in air) or not. Aiks. Super-no-idea how to start my first assignment. OH ya, guess where our kites will be tested?? During our excursion with the rest of freshies, juniors & seniors next month?!?!?! Seriously, if my kite can’t fly, how embarrassing can I get?

p/s: despite the assignments, the feeling of coming back to school makes me feel young & lighthearted again w/o the reality constant worries.. Hahaaha.. :p

Guilty as price charged 05 May 2006
Damn. Paid my fees today. Went Mid Valley with LayFong. Kena “tipu” again. Bought that DKNY Apple perfume I’ve been craving for so long. 185 bucks each. We each bought one and free 2 DKNY bracelets, 1 sling bag, 1 pouch & a Tommy Hilfiger shimmer lotion. That poor sales-guy, haha.. The promotion was actually buying one apple, free one bracelet for 185. We talked him out in giving us more. And he did after minutes of persuading him. But still, I don’t really need a new perfume. I’m still using my FCUK. That’s why I’m feeling guilty for spending money on something I don’t really need but super like. Haha. I’m such a weirdo. Watched Mission Impossible 3 today. TGV Bukit Raja, Cinema 1. Big screen. Make me realize Tom Cruise’s nose is so-not-that-nice. One of the good movies I’ve watched this year. Though some parts were a bit... ermm.. too “co-incidence”. Ermm.. recommended anyway.

A Day where Nothing was Done 04 May 2006
Whole week’s classes were cancelled. Sigh. No-where to go. Nothing to do.
- Lunch with Raymond. (people got new car.. Chevrolet kononnn..)
- Went Ikea with LayFong. Back in Klang for tea at KopiTiam. Double-parked outside the café, sat outside, and keeping an eye on my car. Got 2 monkeys sitting so coincidently in front of us. As we chatting, laughing, we glanced at my car; both of them kept thinking we were like staring & so smiley at them, so they also kept looking back at us. Bin-per-kau.
- Called ZhongHau aka “the shy guy” today, to me, at least I think he is. :P
- Reached home – dinner, American Next Top Model, porridge-ing then BED.

Class - Day One 02 May 2006
Last night sleeping was a problem. Didn’t know what to expect the next day.
Woke up early to avoid the heavy traffic on Federal Hway. Not so familiar with Kesas yet. Kesas nearer but toll more expensive, meanwhile Federal toll cheaper, but longer route. So how? Aiya. Not much difference la. Cheaper toll = higher petrol bill.

Reached uni, still with a hoarse voice. Went to studio, LayFong called. She came up 4th floor to meet me. Chatted for awhile till I notice it was fifteen minutes late & yet no lecturer. Went to faculty, talked to Kelvin. After minutes of discussion between Diana, Zani & whoever-in-charge of the time-table, then only we were told that the lecturer Su-Koh will only sign in next week. Fine then. Kena FFK first day. My class – Degree IA Sem 4 only got 3 students. And 3 girls only.
So sien. No ‘chai’ to ‘kap’. Lesser motivation. :P

Then another thing that surprised me was, I didn’t know private uni also provide discounted price for bumiputra students. Damn. My fees for the 1st semester inclusive of all resources & necessary fees is 6767 bucks. Farah got 7% discount. Seems little right? When you do the deduction from my fees, it’s a total of RM473.69. Little? Not really. Sigh. Whyyy????

So after kena ffk, went Pyramid, met up with ManYee. Bought a super-cheap bag. 12 bucks nia. Watched ‘The Wild’. Nice show. Nice father & son lion. Sitting in front of me is a freako lioness with wild mane. This big girl perm-ed her hair like Scary Spice, tied a headband, shove the whole hair off her seat’s head-rest. Walau. Keep fidgeting her hair (shaking it like as if it’s a windmill) every fifteen minutes. It bloody kept sweeping on my knee like a bloody poodle’s ass. It was so frustrating. The feeling was like having a little cat walking pass your leg under your mamak table. Just gave you such sudden chills. I mean it was that type of hair that even a housefly would trapped to death in her tangle of masses. I seriously prefer Medusa’s hair style more. Looking at her hair in the dark is like a fan of pubic hair. Hahaha.. I’m bad but it’s the truth. Perming hair is not a crime. But treat it with proper ‘care’.

Oh yeah. Got a new friend today. New class-mate. Her name is Phoenix.

Labour Day 01 May 2006
Makes no difference to me. Me no working anymore. Hehe.

A Foolish Day 29 April 2006
Mom went to Thailand yst for hols leaving us all at home. Woke up at 9. Forced myself to sleep till 12. Haha.. Woke up with a voice of a man, I think I have laryngitis. Watching tv & doing the house chores the whole day is absolutely positively boring.

Played badminton with my dungu sis. And oh-my-god. Sheeshh.. pissing me off with her badminton ‘skills’. Hit the shuttlecock to her behind, air ball all the way, we’re like not playing badminton but just picking up the cocks from the ground. I mean, she can serve shuttlecock till it hit her head. Wahh.. each round never lasted after 2 serves. My brother on his bike, teasing her all the way, and the next second he was on the ground sexily posed topless. Why? He fell from his bike when he wants to make a sharp u-turn. We laughed, he laughed & suddenly he cried. Weirdo.

Another stupid thing. Gosh. The new national tv channel, tv9. I was watching that squarepants spongebob cartoon. They translated it into Malay. Aiyeerr… Cannot tahan la. The background music is so off, & the character voices are horrible, so straight-emotionless. So dull. But when that bob started singing a short silly song “When I Ripped my Pants”, they put it back into the original English version. Wah-piangg!! Suddenly malay, suddenly English. Where can see 1? And what makes me start to really hate local Malay cartoons is that ‘Keluang Man’? Total bodohhhh...

Went 1U with ManYee & Paul tonight. So paiseh made them wait for half hour plus. Forgive me just because I drove Vios that day. Haha.. Pek-chik. Dinner at TGIF. Paul so happy cos got fashion show. Force myself to buy something at TopShop just because I don’t wanna waste my 25 bucks voucher. 3 of us did something super embarrassing (in public) with the fire-rated escape door that I really don’t wanna talk about it. Hehe. Super super dumb. Laughed our asses off till we reached our car. It was a good night-out though.

Da Vinci Code Trail

bought the book.
waiting for the movie.
releasing soon. 18 May.
can't wait!!! hehehe..

1st orientation day!

Today was my first orientation day. I was late. 10.00am start but reached there at 10:30am. Stupid jam. Then, waited for Farah, she took the wrong turn & heading to Kajang. Haha. We both reached the hall at 11.00am sharp. The people on the stage, talked & talked & talked & talked. I heard the phrase "Welcome to UCSI!" at least 20 times in 3 hours. Can simply die man.. But lucky that student affairs president was cute though.. from Chicago, woke me up from other same old speeches, but my ass really hurt man. Sit so long. Most of the students there today are mostly super freshies.. all just grad from high school or A-levels & all, so they look super young, I'm not trying to say I'm old (haha,very funny.. Farah's older than me tho.. hehe) but we looked like old chiqs sitting there, listening to all the VPs talking. I was so bored, observing around, there were parents there too.. hahah sleeping on their chairs man.. beh tahan..~

Aiyo, how leh? 6 subjects! Everyday class man. Travel there everyday meh?! Not full day la.. but still gotta be there everyday.. Kanasaii!! No difference with work leh.

Did some comparison though -

UCSI

- Everything bout them is E this & E that. You can choose or drop your subjects online.

- Own student email

- Online forum & discussion with your lecturers.

- Everything more advanced & organized.

- Lecturers are experienced & labs are all fully equiped.

- Whole campus = broadband.

Limkokwing

- Internet 3 out of 5 days not working or super slow

- Computer labs locked. Duno pay resources fees 1k for what.

- Find lecturers? Early booking. If not, they won't see you.

- Even you want to pay your fees, they send you from bursary to staffroom to registry then back to bursary again. Receipt also must wait for them to write & it looked like Seafood Restaurant long long long receipt but with a black bird.

- Registration or drop subjects. PLEASE queue up for 2 days.

- Lecturers? Fresh grad from diploma also can be your design co-ordinator.

- Whole campus? Look unfinished & BLACK!!

It's not that I'm starting my studies at UCSI then I'm bad-mouthing limkokwing or anything ok. No offense. But if you pay for my whole degree fees to study back at limkokwing, I rather stuck with only diploma for the rest of my life. Appearance is like.. "Wahh.. Limkokwing wor.. Cool.. High achievements" Behind the curtain.."My foot larr!! the bloody sucking uni. Go for intern 4 months also have to pay uni 8k. WTF?!?" The 8k issue, I heard from my juniors. And another thing is.. those who studied before at limkokwing, definitely wouldn't want to go back to limkokwing again. I've got statistics to prove it man.. Haha..

This Friday quit job. Next Tuesday start class!!! What the hell!!?!??!

Extreme Makeover

Memoirs.. Yesterday night we were laughing our ass off this matter...
One Sunday afternoon. So bored. Someone came to my aid.

"Look at me & my sis. So cina-cina blur-blur look."
"What? A make-over? Just for me?!.. Cool.. "
Before...

the AFTER!!!!----------

"OWwW!!!~ I'm sizzlinnggg HOt!!"

hahah.. I'm such a bitch huh?!?!? Anyway. Meant no harm. 3 of us enjoyed it except our parents.. hahah lol~

p/s : no worries. he's really straight.

1st bunny bath

22 April 2006

Saturday afternoon. First bath for bubu. The female, Lulu was given by my dad's friend. Same breed & as horny. Hahaha..

yes. that is what you think it is. his balls. NO! not sunat ok. just trimming his bunny tail fur for hygiene purposes.

1. dad & bro keep molesting him. haha. 2. task accomplished. the dumb & dumberer

1. left to "tan" after i dried him up. 2. their pile of shits. for plants. haha.

so sadd.. bubu (black cage) & lulu (white cage) cannot be in the same cage. Mom doesn't wan them to uh-uh & make babies.

Cute darlings with super-high sex drive. Love them tonss... Not for sale though.

found her picture

1. the old hag Cixi sitting down doing ntg. 2. a potrait of her with her full official name

old hag + her sons' other concubines

Got more pictures but lazy to upload. More pics to see, just click the Empress Dowager under my Something Else category. Duno how real it is. If she really was the Empress Dowager Cixi, then she wasn't that super beauty as how the book described she was. Unless when she's young. Maybe. But I really don't even want to get a glimpse of her during the night. She'll probably send me a free ticket to hell. SHucKkss..!!!

a bitch to KILL

Yesterday was Jusco JCard member day. Was planning to get some new stationary stuff for coming classes. Expectedly it was super jam, but fortunately I get to find a parking. Anyway, the whole Jusco was so filled with people. At first I thought the sales was only in the Jusco Dept Store, who knows it was all over Jusco. Even retailers also. They were like checking your Jcards, if you don't have one, you can't enter the stores.

Ok. Anyway Jusco sales is not the main thing in my blog today. Well, besides stationary, I was planning to buy a make-up remover. The Bodyshop's can't remove waterproof mascara, so I gotta get another.

Went to Clinique. Was introduced by this heavily make-up, eye shadow in bright cyan with blue eyeliner bitch-in-her-late-30s. From the moment that bitch talked to me, probably she look at me as if I'm some cheapo who will ask a lot then won't buy. Her colleague can recognised me because I bought a full set of facial products from her but she was busy to entertain me. Fine. 4 kinds. 2 cream lotion remover & 2 liquid remover. Eye & lip remover is different from face. I didn't know. Duh. Anyway, I just asked her on the expiry & other necessary questions that you need to know before you purchase the product. 75 bucks for a small narrow bottle. In Guardian, you can get a Maybelline or Loreal's in only less than 25 bucks. Obviously I ought to know more about it, the differences & all. Despite the noise, the crowd, it was actually quite hard to get her words right & into my head. I was so pissed at her because of the last bloody sentence she said.

Last scene.. The conversation was in Mandarin.

Me : Are you sure it can remove even waterproof mascara? It's not even oil-based. Previous products I bought couldn't. Just making sure.

Bitch : "Miss, I think from just now I'm explaining to you till now, I don't think you listened nor you understand. I explained until my mouth also dry already...bla bla bla......"

Bloody bitch. Is this how you serve your customers? Asshole. I seriously don't want to make a scene. I still want to go Jusco ok. :P Anyway, I just told her I wanted that product. She gave me the tag & receipt, and to collect my purchase after I've paid. I took the receipt, threw it away & went off to Guardian & bought a Loreal's.

BITCH.

small penis lead to death

‘Small penis’ leads to boy’s suicide

HE WAS a second-year student at a top junior college, a member of the school volleyball team, a cheerful and energetic boy who was doing well enough in his studies to take Special Papers.

Yet on March 3 this year, the 18-year-old jumped to his death from a Bedok housing block, because he was convinced his private parts were too small. Delivering a verdict of suicide on Tuesday, State Coroner Tan Boon Heng was sufficiently concerned by this “tragedy of misinformation” to recommend that the case be forwarded to the Ministry of Education (MOE).
“The importance of sex education to our young people in schools cannot be over-emphasised,” he wrote.
“The case study is useful for relevant MOE officers to appreciate the problem of the severity of misinformation even among the best and brightest in our schools.”

The boy, who cannot be named, had confided in his mother in October last year that he was worried his penis was too small. She took him to a neighbourhood clinic, where the doctor told him his penis was of a normal size for an Asian man, and prescribed him multivitamins. Despite strong emotional support from his girlfriend and his mother, he remained convinced he had a problem. He also had a history of being stressed over schoolwork.

In January, he told his mother that his life was “boring and meaningless” and that the only thing stopping him from suicide was his family's love. On March 3, after his usual volleyball practice, he took a bus from school to the Bedok interchange, but did not take his usual connecting bus home. When his sister sent him a text message at around 7pm to ask if he was coming home for dinner, he replied that he would eat out.
The next and final message she received from him was at 8pm, telling her and their mother to take care.
They realised something was wrong, but he repeatedly failed to answer his phone.

He jumped from a housing block near the Bedok bus interchange at around 8.30pm.
He was semi-conscious when he was taken to Changi General Hospital, but was pronounced dead at 10.40pm from multiple injuries.

– The Straits Times / Asia News Network

Super sad case man, I think. Poor guy. What makes him think his 'kuku' is smaller than the rest of the guys? Sigh..

Seriously guys, do size really matter??

women are like grass, born to be stepped on

Anyone watched 'The Last Emperor' before? Aiyo. I want to watch le. I think I watched the ending half when I was in my last semester in limkokwing. But couldn't concentrate well because of some really big blacks sitting in from of me. The massive curly hair covered half of my view. Can't remember the show too, but I like watching stuff on something like China culture or any countries cultures, myth, legend etc etc. Call me a boring girl but I just feel that it's interesting in a way to learn & to find out more about the olden days' life. I used to be really fond of watching those tv series on how those empress bully & torture the princesses or whoever they hate. Seeing who will win at last, capturing the horny emperor's heart to get his 'dragon seeds'. I'm so cruel. Haha.

I bought a book 'Empress Orchid' by Anchee Min months ago. In the book based on years of research that included documents Min smuggled from the Forbidden City, Empress Orchid tells the story of Tzu Hsi, China's longest-reigning female ruler and its last Empress. For decades Chinese schoolchildren have been taught that Empress Orchid was "a mastermind of pure evil and intrigue," but Min presents a strong-willed, utterly compelling woman who used her beauty to become a concubine of the Emperor and her brains to become his confidante and lover.

- versions of the book cover. I bought the 2nd version because that's the only one I saw & can find -

In the 1850s, when Orchid and her family make their way to Peking, the opium trade with Europe and peasant rebellions are chiseling away at the power of the Chi'ing Dynasty. Emperor Hsien Feng, a frail young man overwhelmed by the demands of state, must choose his Empress and concubines. Orchid is the daughter of an aristocratic but impoverished family. With an empty belly and chilled bones, she dreams of an easy life within the walls of the Forbidden City. Orchid enters the Emperor's "contest," open to all women of full Manchu blood. To her surprise, she is chosen as a low-ranking concubine.

Life in the Forbidden City is hierarchical, highly structured, full of suffocating tradition and endless waiting — Orchid must wear formal dress and makeup every day, in case the Emperor should call. For months she sits in her palace waiting for the call. When she finally wins the Emperor's attention, after scheming with her trusted eunuch, she becomes the target of thousands of other women trying just as hard to claw their way into his presence. Bribery, betrayal, even murder are the weapons used. When, in failing health, the Emperor requests Orchid's help with affairs of state, his advisers resist her at every turn and eventually plot to have her buried alive.

In 1856 Orchid gives birth to the Emperor's only son, Tung Chih, and in 1861, in the Emperor's official decree after his death, she is named Empress Dowager at the tender age of twenty-six and inherits an empire on the verge of collapse. Min deftly describes Orchid's power struggles and the defiance she encounters from the Emperor's board of regents, whose only expectation of a woman is compliance. She and her son are kidnapped and the British destroy Peking, but Orchid is able to defeat the regents and create her own government, which will rule for forty-six years.

Chinese tradition teaches that "women are like grass, born to be stepped on". Anchee Min has made it her life's work to overturn this tradition. In Empress Orchid the woman she portrays is totally at odds with history's rendering. This book, I think Min shows Orchid to be a passionate woman, a loving mother, and a pioneer of reform — a woman as vibrant and tormented as China itself.

It's a nice book. I'm quite a book freak. Bought a lot of books in the past since small. From Sailormoon Comics, Enid Byton, RL Stine, Charles Dickens, magazines, etc etc. Thanks to my mom.. some of it she passed it on to charity, little cousins & also some rubbish bins. She didn't tell me until I found out years later. Her own stack of sweet romantic novels from decades ago, she keep nice nice in her drawer. Argh. The new books I bought recently is all locked up in my room. Halfway through Da Vinci Code. My wishlist recently besides getting rich (hehe), is also to collect the whole wicked set of whatever that has to do with Da Vinci Code. Hoping now la.. but don't know will it come true a not. *fingers crossed*