Yeah something that I was denying a little while ago just happened or happened few days ago that I didn't realized it until I saw it earlier and oh I felt
I guessed feelings fussed up too much before that I didn't see this coming or I'm simply living in denial. I hate the fact that sometimes I think too much up there in my scrawny brain that reality it won't happen. Ahh I'm not sure if I'm feeling relieved (a little) or upset that the same things are happening again.
I'm really unsure and I dare not ask hence dare not expect.
I have a
I think too much. That's my trouble.
People ask me to hope and try. Hope and try?
I hate to be let down AGAIN.
Constant disappointments are killing. Demotivates almost everything for awhile.
Some things are better kept
Sometimes most things that you do not know.. it's better remain that way.
Now I asked myself.. "Am I really relieved now?"
A small part of me said no.
It's always easier to live in denial.