incapabilities

only good friends stay..

"If you don't have your own state of mind..
you'll simply just drown yourself in deep sea."

- Michelle

Lately I've been trapped in a masquerade.
People with various of beautiful, colorful masks walking around me..
"Laughing", "smiling", "complimenting" etc etc.
I know I am not offended or disturbed by this "event".
But some uncontrollably did..
Those who did.. faced me with a mask everyday.
Sometimes totally ignore me.. or just brushed me off as harshly as possible.

Wait... what is masquerade???
"In the masquerade everyone dons their masks. The peasants may become lords and the lords, peasants. The sheep may dress as wolves and the wolves as sheep. The cowards will roar like lions and the traitors will puff out their chests like the noblest of patriots. The name of the masquerade is politics of course."


Show if you're pissed.
Don't act like nothing happened and forced yourself on me.
Don't be a torture.
Wearing a mask is a torture.

It's weird sometimes..
How people aren't willing to trust an empty paper.. a crystal clear situation..
'cos they think.. no way things gonna be this simple.. sure there is some hidden story.
But they choose to believe fully in a complicated shit.. well 'cos it's complicated. Duh.
Too many things to sound fake right?

Some say "Timing" makes a difference.
You think you really understand a friend whom you known for years.
But in fact., you don't.
You think you misunderstand a true friend that you just known for months.
But in fact, yes. You did.

If you don't trust me, why I bother making you trust me?
I'm not that kind of people to force you think what i think.
Mature enough to make your own judgements.
If you think I am that, then I'm that to you.
It doesn't make any difference to my life.
In fact, I feel sorry for you.
Incapable to differ the real and fake.

I know what I did and what I didn't do.
You chose to believe the otherwise.
And that is YOUR problem.
Juggling our friendship on a thin line.
I am disappointed. Very.


Today I turned cold as metal.
And will stay this way till I feel for a change.
You made me.


Office politics.




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What I find unbelievable is..
You said you won't get manipulated.
You said to ignore the Manipulator.
Cos you knew what was happening..
but yet you chose to get manipulated.
Why?
I really treated you like a friend that is hard to find.. that can get along so well.
but guess I'm just a fishing bait to you.
You chose to believe what the rotten apple say.

I feel I am stupid.
I thought working is stressful as how everyone complains bout their work.
To me, working is full of challenges and stress at times.. but exciting..
what really dries me off are the masquerade participants.

Life is a bitch.






p/s: pix credits dA


*grim*

when i was just a 'little' girl...

My name was tagged a couple of times in facebook today.
Ohmyfarkinggawddd....
I can't believe my eyes...
I called Berny straight away and start bubbling uncontrollably..
Probably sounded like an idiot hyena over the phone...
till my tears fell lorr...

I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE MY F*KING EYES!!!

We both were laughing hysterically. None stop.
Speechless. Mixed emotions.
Ve uploaded some pix back in limkokwing. Diploma years.
Exact year = 2003. Freaking 9 years agooooo~
Horrible but real nostalgic.

Fashionably unfashionable.

Can you spot me?

*sobs*grins*sobs*grins*


I can't believe I got boyfriend that time lor.
He must be real blind.




gosh man. i'm so fugly.

my smooth move

Two days ago...
I was walking down my office's porch on the left side.
Suddenly out of nowhere and no time.. I slipped... slipped forward..
At the nick of time... I just grabbed the side fence...
No no.. there was no CrAsh BooM Bang... (no comical scripts ok~)
And no.. I din't fall flat on my ass either.... (you wish)
I.. caught my balance one my right leg but fell hard and sharp on my left knee..
So my position that time was.. as if..
I WAS PROPOSING TO MY OFFICE GATE.

It hurts. God damn pain lor..
And I had to hurry down to site.
Skin scraped, fortunately... no blood.
Clumsy me.

Now my knee looks like this. (above)
No idea when and how and why the bruise became this huge piece...
and so dark..
scary shit... how how how???


How to wear skirt now???


*sulks*


p/s: ignore my silly facial expression up there..
p/p/s: yes. i'm very busy lately. no time to blog properly.



I'm feeling "utterly" bad now.
.....

end of 2008

New Year's Eve - 31 Dec 2008
Venue - Ministry of Sound

working is my latest "addict"

hello

My new haircut + color.
Got all these done in Clips again.
Francis, my favourite stylist again.
Was there with Cass for almost 5 hours.
She and her cropping, perming, dye-ing and treatment-ing.. hehe
Me with my cropping, dye-ing and treatment-ing. *grins*

With much more work stress and piling up responsibilites and roles..
I think with me craving for more indulgence is going to burn a huge hole in my pocket.

Manicure my next stop!!! Here I come~~~~


*

Pix way before I cropped my hair.
Before I start "full-timing" work.

I'm working...

I'm not quite working...

Working makes me old..

Alright, I'm back to working..

Oh gawd..... never-ending work.




*sulks*
i need a break for life

colours make me coloured

I met up with him few days ago after centuries.
We were chilling at the boulevard.

Suddenly he keep staring to his left, I turned...
He was staring at this 2 huge jugs, beamed a bit too "loud"... "eh BIG!!"
Blur me went, "Big meh??"
He grinned dreamily, "Her huge tits fits perfectly here." Shows his hand.
"I want" was his last two words before he got up to introduced himself to the girl.

Guys. So typical. He never changed.
After so long since I last saw him, he is still so PLAY as ever.
But he is still so my "huggy" as ever.


*

I'm quite busy lately. Sorry to say.
Countless hours at work. Back too late to even check my mails.
Will try to update as often as I can...
'cos they were pretty much "interesting" things lining up to post up here..
just that I've freaking got no time to do it. Darn.

Lastly.. mind helping me to choose which colour I should get?
Please... I really really couldn't make up my mind.
Some say white... some say grey..
Some say white similar to a dummy toy phone...
grey too man.. too normal.. too this.. too that.. how??

For a short review of the phone, click *here* ....

Holding the phone 'live' looks better than in pix.
Let's decide. Lend me a brain hand.

XOXO



sobs

eve at MOS

new year = new beginning perhaps?

One last day.
31'st December today.

What should i do tonight?
Let's poppy'fied ourselves then.
Some say MOS'sified =)
See u guys either sana or situ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

let's have a blast counting down the seconds!!

hope next year will be a great year.
*fingers crossed*





mixed emotion

my bonny lies over the ocean~~

i miss.. so therefore i sulk...
here goes...


i miss bonny.
bonny no care me d.
bonny no more my good friend.
bonny no more silly random craps.
bonny so so so workaholic.
bonny is in my speed dial that i no longer call.
or i call but no one pick up.
this is so sad bonny.
bonny care me la.
bonny pick up my calls la.
bonny unfair.
bonny bias.
i wan my happy bonny bonny back.
with no the stress wrinkled face.
witty witty minded bonny.

bonny ..... -_-

ok.. i need to work.
so therefore i stop for now.

but lastly.... BONNY!!! come back~~~~




....

scissors me again

i cropped my hair.
bob cut short.
dyed in some color i can't define.
Pix coming up soon.


i hope.


=)

Donnie Yen = Ip Man = AWESOME!!

It's been dead long since I last reviewed on a hot guy movie..
But I could not NOT review this movie...
To me, it's 5 outta 5 stars. Hella GOOD movie.
Movie of the year. I must say. Martial art movie of the "forever"..
No Martial Art movie can catch my attention this much other than this.

I'm going to so sound like an outgrown teenager drooling horribly as you read.

I just can't help it. Oh forgive me, you beautiful people..
I'm so not in my right mind. *sobs*
Not willing to come back to reality. I want the Donnie in the movie so much

Oh gosh. 葉問 !!!!
I'm still "trembling" after watching IP Man twice.
Watched it in the theater with HuayPin twice in 2 days.
It was way cooler than any other martial art movie. (plot *here*)
Made us believe in the character of Yip Man.. I wiki-ed him *here*



Who to play the role of this legendary Wing Chun master none other than....
*drools drools* the perfect Donnie Yen?
I mean he LIVES the character. Played the role oh-so real. *awe*
Check out the article *here*

I really like him more than Jet Li or Jackie Chan.
For the first time, I went kinda overboard gaga-gugu over him in this movie.
He was so darn perfect. Too bad for me to realise it now. Lagi OLD, lagi MAN ok!!
His looks, his stamina, his force, his talent, his likable face. Hahahaha...

Anyway back to the story, 70% of the movie IS real.
Ending of the script was kinda made up but still believable.
Donnie Yen worrr... So resemble the great Yip Man. SO influential.
Watch him here below on what he had to say on playing the role of his life.


Watch the other footage *here*, *here* and *here*!!
The making damn sooo real. No stuntman.. fast, swift and... *speechless*
Emotionless face, damn smooth moves, very very swift actions.. MAN MAN MAN!!
I like the act where he repeatedly punches his nemesis.. damn cool wey...
He NEVER learn Wing Chun Martial Arts before...
and look how quick he learned and portrayed the spirit of the martial art. Talent!!!

Aiyah.. I'm just still so bloody excited over the movie and Donnie. *grins*
Guess what?!?!.. *shrieks over-excitedly*
there might be a PART 2 where they show how Bruce Lee got influenced by Yip Man.
Yah yah.. Bruce Lee was once of Yip Man's great disciple.

*jumps around*
Pssst.. I don't mind watching the THIRD time. Really!!
Love this way much more than Jet Li's "Once upon a time in China(s)"...
Date me? Anyone? C'mon~




Love Donnie

happy five?

I screams, "Happy Birthday my bloggiee!!!!"

Happy birthday + anniversary to my blog!!~
Been 5 years... my lucky number!! ehehe
(check out last year's and bygones bygones... *here*)
and it's CHRISTMAS!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!
Luv ya'll..

hugs and tons of kisses.
*hugs herself*

bore myself today