as she describes herself [ih-moh][per-fek-shuh-nist] or somehow some people define as neurotic perfectionists to those who are unable to feel satisfaction because in their own eyes they never seem to do things [well] enough to warrant that feeling of satisfaction..
Thursday, May 31, 2007
botak sudahhh!!~
Suddenly decided to go crop hair after gym today.
Now damn short larrr!!! *sob*
Not so happy with it.
Not so unhappy with it also.
Look like China aunty from certain angle.
Look like sober old lady.
Look like "cute" babyish bimbo doll. *gulp*
Mind some of my fugly pics down there. HEhehe... =P
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
boh-song-larrrr!!!
*stabs myself right in the center*
some people are just so so so so freaking damn
LUCK-kee
don't even mention this horrible 4 letter word to me anymore..
ok lar.. maybe for at least a month..
*arghhhhHHhhh*
*violently disturbed in my head and heart*
speaking of XXXX.. I blardee don't have it lately!!!
*I am getting really abusive*
damn drama right?
but i'm really damn boh-kam-wan.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
and again...
with..
Jack Sparrow..
I FELL IN LOVE..
when Pirates of Caribbean 1 released..
when he cursed me to be "forever his" sailing off in his Black Pearl..
I FELL OUT of LOVE..
when Pirates of Caribbean 2 released..
i missed the dead man's chest..
he can have mine if he wants.. *cheeky grins*
NOW I FELL BACK in LOVE.. WAY DEEP..
when Pirates of Caribbean 3 took me to the end of the world with him..
we can be forever n ever n ever where eternity lies, immortality exists...
*droolingg*
yo ho.. a pirate's life for me~~..
go check out their soundtracks.. not bad..
hoist the colours too...
yo, ho, haul together~~..
hoist the colours high~~..
heave ho, thieves and beggars~~
never say we die~~
AWWww man.. when I was watching with my sibs this evening..
I was so so engrossed into him man.. and the whole movie..
It was like.. I was.. separated from reality for a sec..
Living in the full adventurous pirates' world with mystery, curse and surreal-ity.
Johnny Depp is SO the MAN mannn.. *click here*
He is so damn freaking suitable for the character.
Like damn damn NGAM him..
No one can bring Jack Sparrow's character to that real LIFE other than him. ARGH.
(no wonder people like DugongRaymond also take him as favourite actor.. LOL)
No trailer this time. Go youtube yourself.
I'm keeping him all to myself. *chuckles* (lazy actually)
For official website click *here*
Actually I watched most Johnny Depp's movies..
ya including that.. Sleepy Hollow.. Corpse's Bride.
No idea how or why.. somehow..
I'm just attracted to him.. especially when he started pirate-ing.
I'm definitely getting all 3 dvds.
Gonna start drooling over him.
I've got a new nick for myself.
Mrs. Jack Sparrow.
*muka tebal, polis won't tangkap one*
*imagining his dark MACHO eye-liner.. grabbing his locks.. smoldering kisses*
and our private "show" starts from there..
let your imagination bring you frantically wilddd...
Sshhhhhh.. *winks*
Sorry peeps...
*curtain closed* "private" remember?
Monday, May 28, 2007
Leaves for dinner
After my marmite pork rice this afternoon for lunch...
my fattening pizza for dinner last night..
and my banana cheesecake...
I so so so desperately IN NEED of some fresh greens..
ORGANIC oil-free, fat-free, calories-free, carbo-free dinner!!!!
(my mind is swaying away and away... wandering.. looking for pasta..) *so craving*
Want my salad anybody? It's fresh and colourful and organic.
(and reminds me of Phoenix.. vegan mar.. hehehe)
At least I don't feel any "jelak" after dinner tonight. =P
But getting hungry fast worr... How?
That's why I stored up some in the fridge for midnight snack.
MWhahahah.. It's like no talk punya talk rite.. *foolishly grins*
*glancing over to my left.. mommy eating cheesecake.. slurps.. saliva dripping*
Sunday, May 27, 2007
busy "yummy" sunday
Din't expect it to be a full busy day ahead. *beams*
YaWWwnnn... greeted with the aroma of mung bean and sweet potato soup.
Yala.. organic again.. -_-
Nice to smell but no interest to eat.
Like I've said again n again me no no "tong-shui" girl..
But kena forced to swallow one full bowl up as breakfast.
(mom yada-yada away with its damn good nutritious facts)
BOOK FAIR!!!!!
Mom and sis wanna go to the Chinese big book fair/exhibition.
Hokkien Association Hall, Klang.
Fetched Aunt Sylvia (mom's friend) from her house and off we went.
Wahsai!!
Really all cina books man. I tak tau baca all.
I went over to the National Geographic booth.
Promoting on subscription. All in chinese.
"You guys have it in English too, right?"
The guy said.. "Nope"
*aiyak! buta-buta kena di-embarass-kan*
Mom complained all lousy books. Unwanted.
My sis bought a horror book... 30% off.
and konon the pisang girl (moi) bought the most.. = Chinese Brushes!!!
Not for calligraphy larr!! watercolour and colouring purposes. =P
I WANT TO BALIK RUMAH!!
Then hor... thought wanna go back d.. mana tau..
These 2 aunties wanna go organic shop. Aiseehhh...
betul-betul cannot come out once they enter.
Take everything like no need money one.
Veggies lar.. oats lar.. crackers lar.. fruits lar.. this lar that lar..
So i saw this organic shampoo cum conditioner.. jojoba oil..
(20 bucks for one small bottle, if good I intro u guys nex time =P)
Ask mummy to buy for me..
mWhahahaha.. she did. *hug hug huggg grins broadly*
"If finished d, you buy urself next time okay."
-_- Happy halfway only. Ceh.
WHAT?? STILL NOT GOING HOMEE?!??!?
Then hor... I really really thought can balik d.
Mana tau... going over to Aunt Sylvia's house to make pizza and cheese cake.
*slaps forehead*
Ok lar.. cincai lar then, since my cheesecake failed *here*..
She and my mom good in cooking. Both went baking classes together before.
She's good. Worked in NZ before.
Pizza was abfab. I like the oregano smell. *munch munch*.
I prefer this more than Pizza Hut or Dominoes.
This pizza reminds me of the All Star Sports Cafe Pizza. Miss it.
*craving* FATTENING siall!!!!
While waiting for the pizza to bake.. started on mixing cheesecake ingredients.. No need use machine one wor.. *gasped* all hand mix.. *wwahhhh* Hahahhaha.
Planning to make banana cheesecake.. oh.. i mean.. ORGANIC banana cheesecake. Even the sugar also organic. *shakes head* Sigh.
The cake was nice but I couldn't quite take the banana smell.. too "heavy" for me though.
BUT better than mine lar okayy.. cos her cheese is *yummyylicioussss*..
FATTENING SIALLL!!!!! but yummy wor.. BUT FAT FAT FATTTTT!!!!!
After all these fuss and buss and muss.. balik rumah.. shower.. and off to AIRPORT.
Daddy coming back.. Yay Yay!!
Days passed damn kuai-sey fast lorr.. Wahahaha..
Tra-la-la-la-la...
Toodles.. *skipping around like soh-porhh*
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Allan very happy tonight
another 22 tahun boy turning to a new 23 tahun
But got a short vid. =P
Brain malfunction. Words tak tentu. Sorry.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
cheesyy "freckled" cake
My lil' brother wants little tart shapes cheesy..
Not sure can a not.. no harm giving it a try.. *takut-takut*
if not nice.. he still will sapu all.. so no worries. Mwhahaha..
Chilling the batter.
Hmm... sitting there, chilling and lepaking with rest of the "family" in my fridge.
Let it sulk there overnight and see how tomorrow.
But hor.. someone curi makan the small tarts...
AISEHHhhhh..
the taste still like some cheesy cake lar..
the bottom layer is a bit "sor".. cos it's oat digestive crackers..
the cheesy layer not creamy enough.. cos the mixing part a bit "kesalahan"
Oh dear... u can even see from the pic that..
it's dot dot dot.. like my face.. the freckled face..
ahahhaha.. Darn it..
so I assumed.. the first try-out = FAIL.
*running around "spluttering" tears*
Never mind. Still got next time.
Practices make perfect mar..
BUT practices to make cheesecakes make me FAT too..
-_-"
Monday, May 21, 2007
berny, birthday babe
Berny~~~!!!!!
random pic. outside Hartamas Shopping Center.
Candid piece. She deleted the cutest one I took. Blardee.
I look damn silly up here. IIIiiissshhhh...
My forehead looked as wide as the airport itself.
Bad angle.
Bad hair "flip" too.
10 airplanes can parked on my forehead side by side dy.
*curse deeply*
(whispers) Tyra Bank's forehead also wide hor.. Hehehehe.. *devilish thoughts*
Hehe.. Kacau her again.
Her dimples damn chun one lor okay..
Damn a lot of guys complimented on her dimples d..
Jeles-nya aku.. *pokes her dimple*
Finally she willing to smile prettily and damn FAKE-ly.
Auditioning for the latest Darlie toothpaste ad. Pass boh??
No other pics of the bday girl d.. except her sitting by the roadside. sobb....
We're so bad hor.. *weeps openly*
pls shut up only at the right time
Like totally hate it till the desperate need to poke the eyes, chop the head, drain the blood, scrape the skin, slice it, dice it, mince it and feed it to the fugly stray dogs that end up puking it all out again. *stinks*
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Shopping orgassmm
Let's shopping.. uh huhhh uh huhhhh.. i like it.. uh huhhh uh huhhhh
Let's go shoppinngggggg!!!!!
Fantastica fabulousaaa desperattaaaa urge to shoppppaaa....
Who's up for a shopping spree?!??!?!
Weeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~ *screams hysterically*
(saw one hand up... and another.. andd.. andd.... fuyyoohhhhh... wayy lotttttts)
*waves up highhhhh and goess wilddddd*
Let's go shoppinggg... shoppa and shoppppa and shoppppaaaaaaaaaaaa.. uhhhhh.. sizzz..
ah shoppp.... shoppp.. shopppppppppp!!!!!!~~~~~
shopshopshopshopshopshopshpsohopshpsohposhposhposhopsshopshopsho
SHOPPING!!!!
Oops.. my sudden shopping-triple-orgasm attack.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
my own creation pasta
The difference is.. today is Saturday. Damn.
Stay at home and sulk over my menstrual cramps and back-aches.
*
I made lunch today despite I couldn't even stand like real straight with shoulders straight, chest up, or with a book on my head. Like I said.. nothing to do mar..
The pasta tasted good. Seriously. *grinning*
No kidding. They finished it.
My mom is quite a food critic..
Those really don't-give-face type especially to me...
And she ate most of it. Hehehehe.. *happy happy*
I didn't eat much 'cos ... err.. no idea why.
Cramps making me not hungry, i guess. *smirks*
My organic mom's total lovable organic porridge. She made it yesterday.
All 6 - 7 different types of seeds or beans or rice were in it. All organic. ALL.
While she was making it yesterday, I was chatting with her in the kitchen, she kept telling me,
"Must eat okay.. very good for health.. full of fiber.. good for health.. health is important okayy.. eat more later ya.."
I just nod my head..
"Ya mom.. ya ya.. I know.. health.. ya.. good.. ya.." *still nodding*
Mom shook head. "Sigh.. good healthy things duno how to appreciate.. young people nowadays.. sigh.."
-_-
Might be making organic sushi tomorrow. Haikss...
I'll try to change her mind. Phobia sushi lehhh.. and organic sushii lehhh.. err..
*scratches head*
Friday, May 18, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
S for Shogun... and "sushi". ..
Lazy. And busy.. chatting.
Went Shogun 1 Utama with Raymond today.
SusSSshhhIIiiii buffeeeetttt...
Long time no see this dude.. months d.. still THAT sepet..
MWHAHHAhahahhahaha....
Some people tell me.. Shogun sucks.. some say shogun rocks..
I SAY.. SHOGUN SO-the-SO.
Cheap lor.. cheaper than other sushi buffet. *duh*
Pay the price then expect that quality nia lar..
Haih.. some people horrrrrrrrr... pay 1 buck want 10 bucks meat.
*mWahahahhaha*
First round. *up up*
Second round - waiter say cannot snap pic. *shrieks I didn't know*
Din't really eat much of sushi but swallowed lotsa sashimi only.. hehe..
Raymond. Shy wor 'cos he knows I gonna blog it up. *laughs*
"Wahhhh.. sharkfins soup free-flowwww"
"Shark my ass.. mostly jelly la. hahhahaha"
-_- "potong steam"
dot dot.. dot dot..
After walking, digesting.. settled for a movie that no need use brain to think.
You can just leave your brain back home when you watch this movie..
"Blades of GLORYYYY"
*squeals like bimbo*
how can u fly up high with ur 'fire' skaters???
can hold on the dude's crotch and swing him around like helicopter??..
or smashing his dongs with ur skaters and still stay alive???
andd... a boob-shake????? wTF??!!
and 2 things bout this movie is.. GAY GAY GAY!!!!!!!
one too macho sex-addict GAY..
another too-sissy-ninny-wussy GAY!!!
funny.. but painful to watch..
Just a few first minutes of their "teamwork". LOL.
Go watch lar.. malas youtube the trailer.
On the way home.. fidgeting with this little sheep. Raymond's. A present from his
Nite'.
By the way, I think I phobia sushi d. At least for the time being.
No worries. Will recover soon.
Toodles.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Daddy. Father.
Hate the feeling when I watched his back walking into the terminal.
I felt so sad.
I know it's common for him to fly on business trips..
at least a week every month since I was a kid..
But ever since I started sending him to the airport...
on the way there.. we were just talking and talking.. over any issues or obstacles I've encountered lately.. kicking back old funny kiddy memories.
Today my sister came with me..
started talking bout education.. her school, my friends.. his work.. etc etc..
I was just keep trying to keep the whole journey there more alive.. talking and talking..
avoiding silent moments..
Finally when we were there.. helped him with his luggage up the cart..
I felt stoned, slightly not so happy..
Watching his back,
stood by my car,
watching him heading towards the terminal entrance..
I felt sad.
Driving back.. tears drop silently. Just a few drops.
Whyyy early fifties d.. still have to fly here and there every month..
so much hard work.. so many wrinkles to count his worries..
as much white hair to bring a perfect dinner on our tables every night.
so much of his.. so many of his.. makes me strive even harder towards my success..
Sigh.
Hated the fact that he is still working so damn hard despite he's the boss.
One working to feed so many mouths, ain't just my family.. instead the "whole BIG" family.
Hated the fact I'm always worried over him when he's on business trips.
Why oh why.. sigh.. I'm so flatteringly emo.
The real relieve is..
not the stress leaving me after finals..
or.. a huge shopping spree after not shopping for months..
or.. a huge huge meal after successfully drop pounds..
but the real damn relieve is to see him walking out from the airport, smiling on the day we stood there waiting.
Sacrifice.
Tears.
Anger.
Laughter.
All worth it.
The appreciation.
To dad.
And to mom.
p/s: business trips ARE NOT extra "out-door" activities like some pervs out there are thinking. Ass.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
28 days? weeks? who cares????
Sounds like a real damn real certified pig rite?? cos I'm really really fed-up with the pc. I've been staring at this box for like months months monthhhsssss and for like more than 13 hours a day when my finals were near. So can I like get a bloody break away from this box ar? I was actually 'forced' by Yvonne to update my blog. Tee-hee.. *sure i kena later one*
So here goes..
-_-
I admit it was lame okay..
some silly bimbo like me.. err.. okay lar... so-so lar.. sheeeyuckkkkksss....
I wiki'ed it..
click *HERE* for 28 days later
click *HERE* for 28 weeks later
I youtube'd the trailer too..
One advice - don't kena tipu on how interesting trailers are.
Trailers are memang meant to tipu people to watch the movie and come out with horrible reviews.
Not hot ar?? NOT hot mehh?? Damn hot larrrr weyy...
ATTENTION - Me no lesbian. Me just appreciating 'art'.
Choi meh?
Sunday, May 13, 2007
my personal"DNA" report
So what I got in the end was.... I'm an Attentive Inventor.
(Mouse over any part of the box or strip to learn more about the traits that the colors represent.)
If you wanna view my personalDNA report.. *click HERE*
If you wanna know what's yours... "click HERE*
Thursday, May 10, 2007
hibernatingg
sleeppp sleepppp sleeeppp SLEEPPpppppp SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPing timing.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
hatred kills
kena summon obviously. my bad.
swollen lips.
How to present tomorrow???
if it happen on every normal day.. i wouldn't complain that much...
but why why whyyyy when tomorrow is presentation day!?!??!?!
how to present with a "fishball" at the side of my lips!!!
worst still!!!!!! i don't have car for so months!!!! ASS!!!! lagi-lagi it's HOLIDAYS soon!!!!
very very pissed off..
worked so hard till the very last day.. shit really happens.
FUCK.
will upload the pics when i get my wrecked car visuals from my uncle.
*screams out loud* veryyy louddddddd.....
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
mixed rojak emotions
i'm so blarrdeee under that situation now..
so blardee feeling it now..
darn.
Tomorrow is pin-up day.
I'm halfway compiling my presentation board.
I felt so anxious suddenly.
Then.. I felt so happy.. 'cos finals gonna be over soon.
Then.. I felt so nervous.. how to present. scared.
Then.. I felt.. freeedommm.... almost tasting it..
Then.. I.. I.. felt.. feltt... ARGHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh indescribable!!!
Semua campur jadi rojak busuk. *pinch nose*
Chaow. Back to work.
Just feel like releasing some crap here.
Monday, May 07, 2007
short, sweet yet meaningful.
So,I could take your picture with my mind.
Put it in a frame for you to see
How beautiful you really are to me..
Jon Bon Jovi
Short, sweet yet meaningful.
I need a lot of calming little things to soothe me out lately.
Finals in 3 days. Pin-up in 2 days. I'm so going crazy.
Panic attacks at least 3-4 times a day.
Worried, anxious, dilemma.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
fuck my life
You left me no choice.
Why you always want me to stand in your shoes and think on your behalf??
but you never do that to me.
I know I wasn't there when I was a kid..
but it wasn't my choice.
It was yours.. so why are you blaming me now?
You expect me to help you every time 24/7
as long as you see me sitting around watching tv or on the phone..
but it never never cross your mind that I'm just taking a short break over everything I'm so stressed about..
You never ask me why I am stressed...
why I am unhappy..
you just make the situation worst.
You always screamed what your stupid mind is assuming.. 90% is fake.
then how about me?? I want to scream but I couldn't.
what about my feelings? what about what I want to say..
Then.. thinking again, what I say doesn't matter much 'cos it wouldn't go into your head.
I know you cared at times through your actions...
but I really had enough of your anger words.
They are so hurtful and seriously I couldn't take it. They're just plain nonsense.
I hate it.. I hate it.. but I really can't bring myself to hate YOU.
No matter what shit u say.. I'll still respect you.
Just don't assume whatever I'm facing in my life is kacang putih.
It might be nothing to you.. but it meant a whole fucking lot to me.
Another thing.. I won't die. I won't be a foolish dumb fuck to go suicide.
So don't expect me to do it. If you want me to die.. easy. You can curse me, kill me or hired someone BUT I won't do anything harmful to myself. I still want to live long to see how I end up in my own future.
For this.. I will really really really thank you. I.F.M.I.T.E.H.
Okay. I'll try to "lengthen" my patience duration next time.
Friday, May 04, 2007
revenge is sweet
Lucky huh? Kids nowadays... Form 1 nia.. got mobile.
hmmmph. speaking of "unfairness". *scoffs*
(err.. is there such word as unfairness?? paiseh.. >_<)
(in front of her lar.. I don curi-curi go invade her privacy one)
then I saw this name "Sophia".. only one unfamiliar name..
'cos normally she'll talk talk talk bout her friends and school to me.. and she had her huge bday party back home.. so I agak-agak know who's who..
Nevertheless, I just asked her who was that.. out of curiosity.. just a casual conversation..
eh.. who's Sophia?
oh. she's a Christian.
-_-
Damn. I was so dumbfounded with her stupid answer.
Who cares if she's a Indian or Malay or Christian or lesbian or some saggy aunty..
I just expect her to tell me.. err classmate.. or tuition friend.. or whoever..
She pulak tell me Sophia is a Christian. What la~ *smacks her head*
So today.. I have my sweet revenge.
eh jie.. who is that Abdul guy daddy is talking about just now?
oh.. he's a malay.
*silence* Damn you.
hahhahahahhahaha.. Ok. I know i'm lame.
Fine. Anyway.. sleeping d.
Lotsa people fall sick lately. I must HANG-ON!!!
*fingers crossed actually*
Thursday, May 03, 2007
simon + lakisha "slurps"
Disastrous headache attack. *killing me with no mercy*
Gotta sleep early tonight. Tired.
Really gonna take a break if I wanna to stay alive till the "war" day.
"If I could be a chick for a day, the first thing I’d do is...?"
As you read through.. you'll see.. what guys really think. Some wanna wear tampons, some wanna lose their virginity and see whether is that a real big deal for girls, some wanna flirt.. etc etc etc. Sigh. You think be char boh so easy mehhhh???
She say.. "Tomorrow you must watchhhhh!!!! Don't missed it.."
My reaction was... "EEEerrr... yeerrrrrr... tsk.. eiuuuu.. awww.. goshhhh.. yeee.. err.. okkay.. ok. YER!!!!!" *shivers*
I can't wait for tomorrow night's repeat so I youtubed it. Here's the clip.
Ahhh cehhh... just a quick peck.. (see how he keep touching his lips then)
then again.. yishhhh... then again.. so what?
Right? *drowsy-lar aku* *headaches*
Ha? Cannot see ar? OK ok. Boh-move one.
Ok liao boh?? Song liao boh? Don't worry. Your time will come.
*trying to laugh out loud but couldn't*
pssst.. I knew Simon is tall.. but din't expect him to be THAT tall.. or is just Lakisha is darn pretty short. and somehow.. she reminds me of the wide-version Fantasia.
*
*grunting* I'm trying to release stress.
*screams* I'm releasing stress
*bang table* I'm still releasing stress
*grunting then screaming, continuously banging table* I'm SO retarded.
Ok. Head is really bursting. *argh*
Painkillers are my best friend nowadays. Damn.